so tired

im so sick and tired of this x mas shit all ready. it hurts so much to see  it all and everyone talking about it . I just want it to be over. I stay in my room all the time so I don't have to see the lights, I don't go out so I don't have to see  people so dam happy.  my eyes fill up so fast, my tears still fall all the time.  its not a happy time any more just so pain full, I wish it was over, I wish I was with shawn,  I beg my son to please  take me home, take me out of this hell I live in.

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Comment by Felicia on December 4, 2015 at 11:48pm

I'm so sorry this time of year is making it even harder for you, Kim. It is so hard to see others happy with their loved ones when we are desperately missing ours. Sometimes I feel so jealous when I see someone else enjoying life with those they love most. Sending you a big hug...and I will pray for both of us tonite. Isaiah 25:8 says, "He will swallow up death Forever, and the Sovereign Lord will wipe the tears from all faces..."

Comment by Rj on December 3, 2015 at 11:01am
Enhances the heartache doesn't it? As if its not hard enough...Hugs to you dear kim

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