So Ready To Go

 I said I'd be wearing black by the end of the week, and I am.  I lost a best friend yesterday around noon.  The doctors couldn't do anymore to help her. So I sat next to her as she took her last breaths and told her how much I love her.  Told her what a good friend she was to me.  She died while I was talking to her.  I am so devastated this morning.  I am so physically and emotionally ill. My blood pressure went sky high last night, and I don't evn have high blood pressure, normally.  I didn't even go to the ER.  I don't care.  If I too pass, so what?  I will be resurrected into a better world. I just hurt so bad, I am ready to go.                                        

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Comment by Steph on May 25, 2016 at 2:26pm

I don't know if this helps or not, but it helps me to think of how they lost their lives and how there were things they wanted to accomplish, do, see, etc. I have that chance. I can't just give up yet. They weren't able to live, but I am. I must now live for not only me, but for them (him specifically). 

Comment by bluebird on May 22, 2016 at 8:36pm

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