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I am 34 years old and was married to my husband, Chris...age 35. He was in Denver on business when I called him because our 3 year old wanted to talk to him. A nurse picked up his phone and asked who I was. I told her and she said she was getting a Dr. The Dr said they couldn't get a heartbeat. My husband died suddenly of a heart attack while driving. This was 6 week ago. We have a 3 month old and a 3 year old. I believe I'm still in shock. I ca't process this. My 3 year old cries daily for him. I just need to know it gets better. My 3 month old will never know his daddy. So..I came here for support. Maybe someone can guide me through this. I'm mad..I'm really angry. To release my anger I take a box of dishes and go to a country road and throw them. It helps. But it's not bringing him back. People want me to start to get better but it's only been 6 weeks. How do people cope with this kind of loss?
Shayna
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welcome shayna..my name is adriana i lost my husband on june... he was only 28... theres no teeling when well get thru this... i understand u i have a 3 year old boy crying for his daddy all the time..it brakes my heart ...i wish i could tell u what everyone else tells u but i cant cause i cant even feel that for myself... all i could tell u is to go to church n pray alot... is the only place that makes me feel better.. ask god to guide you.. all we have left is to be strong for our little ones ...
Rhonda - Yep. I might lose it too if someone else says God has a plan. My husband died because he had a bad heart. There is no bigger plan. I lost him. There is no grand scheme here. And I want to punch people that say that crap to me. That's my anger coming out.
Michael - I just want him back. I dont want this trauma. It is so overwhelming. I have 2 little ones to raise so I need to pull it together.
Shayna,
So very sorry for your loss. Every feeling, emotion, thoughts you have are very normal.
You are supposed to have this kind of trouble, it's from the trauma, that will thin out, then
we have to go through the grief but it does get better. I have learned that educating myself on loss
and grief has helped me a great deal. We have to know what to expect. You will see and you will
eventually begin to feel some peace, but it takes a while! Hang in there, time heals, and all we have is time!
You have a best friend here as well as many best friends on this site!
Heaven bless,
Michael
Shayna,
You get better in your own time. And give yourself permission to be angry, sad, selfish and whatever else you want to be. I lost the man I love 7 weeks ago in a motorcycle accident. We cry, we scream, but nothing brings them back. I'm pissed off at god, and if one more person tells me "things happen for a reason" or "it's all part of a bigger plan" I might lose it. Do me a favor and read the blog I posted today. I don't know if it will help you, but maybe just a little.
You are in my heart. Take care of yourself.
Rhonda
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