Here is my situation. I have broken ribs and trying to keep up the best I can with my obligations and god nows how hard it is. So here I find myself fighting for my own health and my family health, and there is this aunt that engages in a conversation with me that is DISTURBING to say the least. She was questioning my trip to a lawyer versus a trip to the hospital to see my mother. Yeah, I wonder how much she wants my body, my pain, and MY LIFE and having to comre across this nonsense. She thinks my sister is wonderful caring for my mother, well I don´t because because I´m the one who is not confortable to step in an environment to see mother being misstreated and applause. No I will complain or not go. Then I am guilty of NOT CARING. Well I cared so much and how come I get the opposite feeling right now...must be my sick head and not something tangible no one experiences but me and the caretaker at the time I was doing with her care giving and having to fix all the shit coming my mother´s way that could cost her LIFE. Yeah, I must be nuts...right. THen the bulshit gets bigger and better. All teh people complaining to me are GOSSIPERS. Yeah right, they love to call me to say weird things they see there just because they don´t have anything better to do...I wonder how the same wrds around this migrated from my sister´s mouth to theirs. Life is beautiful. Must be I am the fool and they are all so righteous that I feel like throwing up just seeing this soapopera that has me as the BAD COP. Well, why would they GOSSIP, maybe LEGITIMATE CONCERN? Yeah, maybe they have been PUT IN THEIR PLACE when trying to speak up and found DEAF EARS, but well they are aall with me BEING BAD PEOPLE against the status quo. Since my mother seems to BE SO HAPPY THERE. Well, then why my phone doesn´t cease to exist free from people´s concerns. Must be the theory of conspiracy. Me with broken ribs and a bad back really want to have energy to cospire...man, you really dont grasp how unfair the words are against me. Becasue I don´t need any of that, although I would like THE RIGHT FOR QUALITY TIME with MY MOTHER which is a right by law and as a daughter. Fact is why can´t I do it? Instead of questioning my motives, I wonder how many really love the concept to think its all so perfect and I insist not to FIT IN. HOLY MACARRONY CRAP. Just yesterday I complainedto my sister and mother famiy about my sister jumping on me when talking about what is wrong in mother care with PERSONAL ATTACKS. Saying how crappy I must be to BORROW my apartment and driving a car that was  a GIFT. ntersting. The apartment is my own and the car is my own too. But she wants my car apartment and what more? My  dog, my back, my food, my clothes....INSANITY that is. So I cc them all and what I got, more rocks my way. Then I wonder why I DO NOT VISIT. And I wonder why they insist to BLOW MY PHONE in MOTHER´S DAY because I really don´t understand why I have to play the role here to validate shit when apparently shit is STANDING UP ON IT´S OWN. Why anyone needs me to buy into that? Or crucify me? I guess the bulshit turned from family to company and turned into a mental institution with government recognition or something. ONE THING IS FOR SURE..I OWN MY MIND and CRAP IS CRAP. SHIT IS SHIT. How many want to live my life here? Lets see who pays my bills, cook for me, drive for me and FEELS MY PAIN and on top SUFFERS from being in the same family crap without EVER BELONGING TO CRAP. Family out the window for me, or they wont help getting my duties to deffend my rights. Guess they don´t do for mother either but how lovely is expanding their NOT GIVE A SHIT to me. Yeah ....right! I´m out and will block tons if this becomes any mroe abusive. Better than that, consider me dead and don´t ask how I am doing...that SIMPLE. SIGHT