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Comment by Collin Bentley on May 4, 2012 at 6:59pm

Thank you so much Sue, that was beautiful.  I believe that Russell is definitely in a better place and you are so right his Spirit continues on and I miss his presence and everything that made him who he is.  I am sorry to hear about you mom, it is so refreshing though to hear a person of faith that really believes in that place where there is no pain, no sorrow or any malevolent force whatsoever.  It truly helps a person such as myself to read your insight and your Faith.  Before Russell passed the only prayer that I had was that my brother pass when my mother was not at the house and sure enough the CNA (who was not supposed to come by) called my pops and asked him if it would be alright if she stopped by and when she did she stayed with us till my brother breathed his last breath.  My mom happened to be at the store while this was happening. She returned about ten minutes after my brother passed.

You are so right about the beginning, I was talking with my parents and we talked about how this is simply a new chapter in the book of Life.  I was so happy that Russell passed with dignity and in a way that he wanted.  Just a couple weeks before his passing he received Extreme Unction (Last Rites), he was at home and with his father and brother when he passed, he was buried in a way that he would have wanted to be buried. So anyone that does not think that God does not answer prayers they are mistaken.  My prayer that my brother would not pass in the presence of my mom was answered in full effect. 

Sue thank you so much,  I have known people that have suffered from the ill effects of Cancer and it is not easy at all.  A friend of the family passed from bone cancer and it was terribly painful for him.  My brother fortunately was not in grave pain, just alot of disorientation from his ammonia levels being elevated. I can tell by your writing that you are a very kind hearted person and that you walk the walk and have genuine compassion and empathy.  It is so refreshing!

Take care and be well.

In Christ

Collin

Comment by Sue Waxman on May 4, 2012 at 3:12pm

Collin,

Death is not final at all. The soul that occupies that body takes on a personality of it's own. That is what we miss so very much. The personality. You are not just a person named Collin. You are a soul visiting this earth for a reason. You are so much more. Just like your brother is so much more than just your brother. Don't look at his leaving this place to be the end of it all. It is only his beginning. Missing him is part of loving him. Nothing is forever. You and I will be leaving this place too. People will cry for us. People will miss us. I experienced the same thing with my mother suffering so damn much with cancer. She died with me at her side holding her hand. When she died - that very moment - I changed. I realized I was happy for her to be going to a place where there is only love and never pain. I wanted to go with her. Do I miss her every second. I do so much. She was my everything. But I would not want her to be on this earth suffering. The day before she died she sat at the dinning room table and ate a big breakfast. We all thought she was getting better. She passed the next day. Collin, I was just so close to my mom and my life is just so lonely without her. But I told her "Mom go ahead and go with Jesus" and she did. I told her I would be OK until we met again. She has left 3 messages on my cell phone since she passed June 26. 2012. I let my boss hear the latest call because everything things I am nuts. Prepare yourself for your move to the next world. Be the best person you can be until you are chosen to enter the Garden of Souls or some people call it heaven. Sue