My husband passed away on February 20th. We've been together for 32 years and I'm not sure how I'm going to cope with being without him. I've known him for over half my life and it feels a little scary. I have supportive friends and family but they can't be with me all the time and I find myself crying nights and weekends when I miss him the most. During the day I'm at work and it feels normal, except no one texts me to say 'I love you,' or ask me how my day is going.  I'm good at being cheerful at work. If I start talking about him I start to cry so I try to avoid it. Not sure that's the healthiest thing in the world but right now it's the way I cope.

I know things will get better over time but right now I feel like I will never be happy again. Trying to not shut myself up in my room and cry but being out and about with people can be difficult right now. I guess I just need a place to express myself so here I am. 

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