There are huge differences between giving up and moving on. Moving on doesn't mean giving up, but rather accepting that there are some things that cannot be. Letting go and moving on can mean that you're making a choice to be happy rather than hurt. It doesn't mean that you're giving up. For few love can last a lifetime, but for many not knowing when to let go can hold them back forever.-SQ

Happy Birthday my sweet man.  Your first in Heaven.  I miss you so much and having the 4th of July without you was so hard. It's such an "in your face" holiday. I made it through somehow.  I know you are watching over us and I feel you directing us as a family like you always did.  God is with us also.  I am thankful to God that he gave me such a strong, wonderful, beautiful husband to share 33 years with.  You are truly and angel now, just as you were to so many hear on earth.  I will live…

My font size is a "little" bit to big I noticed, promise to downsize

Didn't know how hard my first Holiday without you would be, couldn't even get up the strength to leave the house. So use to preparing food for you to put on the grill and realizing our family traditions will never be the same. Everyone keeps telling me that what I feel is normal, but my life without you will never be normal. I Love you with all my heart and miss you like crazy. Loving you forever and always.

Iam not suicidal.Only in the food dept and Iam cutting down.Grief to me is like a heavy person sitting on your chest.

This morning I was sitting in front of the computer(the supervisors computer ohhh!)he wanted me to watch a certain reaction to resetting some badge readers This was on the computer.I was looking at a read out on the computer and I started to get (startling recreations of seeing my wife dying in the hosp)I had…

I Cry and grieve that you are Gone yet smile that you once lived....I close my eyes and beg and scream and pray that you come back...I open my eyes and look around and see all that you have left in memory's.....My heart is broken at the thought i will never see you, your smile , or hear your giggles so a life ....My heart is filled with love when i think all we did share. and the beautiful moments and memories you have left with me ....I turn my back on…

I am feeling pretty low right now...

I keep restarting this sentence over and over.. First it was "this week has been really difficult" then it was going to be "these past few weeks", than "last month" but the truth is things have been pretty bad for a long time now. I assumed that Julie dying was going to be the end of it, I tried really hard to get up and dust myself off, and put on a pretty smile for the world and dredge on.. but I feel like a runner with two broken…

I know Iam reaching the state of depression where I need to see someone. You know where it eats on you .I called a psycho therapist after she died and made an appointment. I canceled later.Well!!! I should have kept it Anyhow I manage to fight it off(depression) but ifeel its infected my bain.

 I really don't know how much more I can take. Everything you said your grown kids would try to pull they are. Why do they act like they care so much about you now that you are gone yet you never heard from them when you were sick!! I really wish you would have given them a copy of the will before, but then again you were not suppose to leave me!!! God why did you have to take him from me. He was just 51 and…

Tonight I took my daughter Isabella, my nephew Jake, My friend Tiff and her three daughters to see Brave in the Movie Theater.  I was glad to see a Disney Movie where the princess was her own hero and didn't need a prince to fix all her problems or a kiss to save her life. 

I have to admit it made me cry a bit with the mother/daughter story, but I thought this was a princess Julianna would have really loved!! Even something like a Disney movie reminds me of her, and her vibrant…

This has been such a lonely weekend for me. My mom has been gone now 7 months. I"m so sad and the deep depression does not get any better. I try to stay busy but, that doesn't help for 24 hours a day. I"m crying right now and I still feel angry at the cancer institute for the chemotherapy on my mom. I think that doctors don't worry about elderlyl and just give them the treatments without thinking of how fragile they are. I honestly don't know at this point,  how this world can become a good…

Iam going to post a bigger pictue of me  and my wife.The picture was taken years ago when I wasn,t fat

Me and my stepson go to a buddist temple session (service) every Sun .My wife was taiwanese. You go for 7 sun and this assures she goes to heaven(pureland)

Two more sun and we don,t have to go back. I don,t want to make it sound bad its just in chinese.The monks or clergyman(all woman) always help you and speak excellent english.There is a big difference bertween a…

I was reading the post about friends and family not really offering any support.Its awful when someone says "aww you,ll just get over it"Its hard for anyone to imagine what the loss of a love one is like.Its been a little over a month since my my wife died in hosp.Its just now Iam coming to grips with it.Thank goodness for this web site.Iam thinking of looking up other online support,groups etc .I don,t think I would be…

I FEEL LIKE WHEN I LOST MY HUSBAND I LOST EVERYTHING.MY LIFE STOPPED.AND I DON'T KNOW HOW TO MOVE FORWARD.I MISS HIM EVERYDAY AND CRY FOR HIM EVERYDAY.I ASK GOD EVERYDAY TO PLEASE BRING HIM BACK.WHEN HE PASSED AWAY ALL OF OUR FRIENDS STOPPED CALLING,STOPPED COMMING BY.AND MY FAMILY MEMBERS,ALL THEY CAN SAY IS YOU'LL BE ALRIGHT,DON'T THINK ABOUT.AND I'M ALONE AND THAT'S ALL I DO.THINK ABOUT IT...SO I THOUGHT MAYBE I COULD GET SOME SUPPORT HERE FROM PEOPLE WHO ARE GOING THROUGH THE SAMETHING I…

It has been 7 months since my father passed away. I just recently in the past three weeks, have started the grieving process. I should say, I just recently am moving out of the denial stage. Before he died, we talked about how when he died, he would come back to visit. Our deal was, I would let him go if when he crossed over to the other side, he would find me a husband. I told him he would have super powers and would be able to weed out the bad ones:) So when he died, a few things happened…

I can't believe it's been almost 6 weeks since I've lost you.  I know you are in Heaven with God and your family, and I feel almost selfish for wishing you were here with me.  I am trying to do all the things around the house that you always wanted to get to but didn't have time for because you were so busy working and spending time with me.  Precious time with me...I am so glad we did things the way we did.  You were right...the house could wait...the chores could wait...but we couldn't…

It's been eleven years,

and still I shed tears.

The time flew

and the pain of losing you,

is like the early morning dew;

Always there,

through all the where and tear.

That night, will forever be engrained

inside my head,

and the memories will never lay

fast alseep, well rested and tucked into bed.

No wishing on a shooting star,

will ever change what was lost

eleven years ago.

It won't get me…

there was a ,saying I picked up in AA (long time ago for AA) about being on your pity pot.I suppose being on your pity pot in grief is ok. Iam not going to be over my my loss(take three pills a day and see me in 6 month) I do know grief is stronge stronger than any emotion I have experienced.I wonder if it would have been different had I not allowed life support to be taken off. Had I not been stuck in the hallway of…

I want to say I am grateful for the comments I have been getting, and that I really do appreciate them. I have tried to reply a few times and I just kind of get stuck.  I have been reading other peoples posts and its "nice" to read that at least some others out there understand some of the things that I feel, not that I WANT other people to feel this way.. but it's a small comfort. I want to respond to some of the posts, and be involved in the threads, but I have a hard time offering…

One month already? she passed away one month ago.So Iam wondering around out of control.True to form stepson and gradkids don,t call up .I have to learn to get out the there on my own. My wife used to bother her son with food and gifts.Oh yes her son skipped out years ago when she was out work leaving me hold the bag so to speak.Doesn,t even call up I could be dead laying in the bathtub.Of sourse he would try to get the house.I want to sell this house but I don,t want to be alone.Its hard to…