Procrastination is the ultimate REBEL inside us all. It´s the defying of time and the so many obligations that life imposes to us. I know procrastination here is at it´s best when LIFE has lost most meaning and that fire inside is null. It´s as if the rest of the world makes a clock to go in circles and we want out SILENTLY. It´s a plase to refuge quile refuting the purpose of the clocks. It´s a statement of stuck with the feeet right where the mind is, STILL. Looking for peace to coexist…

Indeed life is interesting. The people hanging out have much to say about where WE ARE. Not because they are all good or bad, they are just BEING THEM and focusing in their BELLY BUTTON. It´s human nature, that´s all. What happens over time that makes some of them OLD NEWS, is that we grow out the need to have them. In fact whatever we most admired became a new stepping stone inside SELF. It´s not about COMPETITION, it´s about looking at mirrors and trying to cope with what looks not well…

THere is no way to come out from a loss not feeling STRONGER WITHIN. THere is no EASY way out, there is a swim against all human crap and a LOT of digging DEEP WITHIN. The hurt opens wounds that EXPOSE the SOUL with a MEANING that most won´t ever get. And we come to this point whereas we don´t have to BELONG to what is not improvement. We can let go the weights HOLDING BACK. Tired and done with the crawling and spreading the wings. Its all an inside job anyhow. We just go where our MIND…

Sometimes the emptiness of it all visits. You know that feeling at evenings and weekends, as if life is happening elsewhere. I don´t feel an engaging part. The parts to play are just not there, inside me. It´s the emptiness and quiet that is so loud. And I pick and choose and all comes back to hunt. As if happy faces are somewhere I don´t quite belong, and quitecan[t forget. Feels like in between life or else. Not that bad because not going for cheap thrills. Not weel enough to enjoy life as…

As much as I´d like to take life quite serious, it´s not necessarily in my control and each jerk reaction out there yeah, I want to kick ass too. There is kiss, kick and put up with and as much as I´d love not to engage, life engages a few of those in that daily course of life perhaps to make sure we also belong to HUMAN RACE in the full range of what means to be part of it. I wonder what time does. Some people seems to be highly unaffected by time, positive or negative, more like 5 year…

It´s one of those things so much easier said than done. At days I st myself in the challenge to only SPEAK positive. Well it´s near IMPOSSIBLE to say and think good all the time because the peers, events and stuations demand from us different. It´s more possible when I am away from people and the interactions. Doctors visits for instance. People and this world is in most cases so deeply ROOTED into a NEGATIVE dynamics that we feel quite compelled to complain back just because in order not to…

When we have a loss we go through stages that arent forever, they move along like a roller coaster of a range of extreme feelings. Like a roller coaster between anger, frustration, sadness and feels like there is no end to the HURT. By interactions and a pattern of attracting equals in any level of interactions there may be, if we were to watch ourselves as the third person holding a camera to our outer expression we wouldcertainly qualify for best actor/actress of a mexican soapopera. We…

Best things in life don´t cost ANYTHING. This is my experience s a pet owner. There is so much more my dog gives me than most humans being will ever be able or WILLING. In her world I am her best friend, she puts her life in danger for me. If I went hungry, she would be right next to me. When I am in bedrest she does never leave bed before I do, NEVER. She just gets food, shelter and love...but her LOYALTY is much beyond what I can possibly give her. She is my friend, companion and…

There is a part of being human that is perhaps more evident to who is more an INTROSPECTIVE person. The part in me that the REBEL takes charge and propulse CHANGE. It´s not visible to others necessarily. Because it is in such a deep level, that most don´t quite read right. Works like this. When a lot of people tell you things that are not remotely acceptable, you make a longer distance from them to you. And they wonder what´s wrong, and of course they wont point at themselves reading you…

Sometimes we get so caght up ih the realms of the what ifs and the have nots and the souldn´t, couldn´t wouldn´t. And what we miss is to find joy in the small things, to smile for the right reasons, and simply EXIST. We put so much pressure in that smile to happen that the guilt or whatever problem shuts the opportunities to ENJOY some more, and allow all to go and fall in place with a little less participation and letting time for things to eventually fall into place. It´s as if we trust…

Shifting the mind to the PRESENT is not only good, but necessary. THe PRESENT is the only time that EXISTS. The FUTURE and PAST are not real. They are a construct of our feelings and experiences and projections. The past is not only facts but attributted feelings and worth of experiences. Some taught, some were good, and some we chosse to forget. No matter what bringing the past to the present and projecting forward is a CHOICE. And most of us grieving don´t FEEL it´s a choice. In fact, we…

Many of us wonder if there will ever be PEACE. It does depend upon PEACE is mentally a real possibility. Meaning, you can´t achive what you don´t believe you DESERVE. As SOULS, we don´t come to this existence in pairs, and there is a reason people walk in and out our lives in one way or another, and that is because they are no longer NEEDED, and most likely it´s not for us to decide. It´s contemplation of what is and was that will lead to this very valuable conclusion. Creating to the soul a…

After so many days and nights in this internal struggle to LIVE in this body and mind that more resembled a world war, being mty body the place and my soul the victim. Only echos of hurt propagating this waves of internal constand struggle. I removed myself from a lot of things, so I could sort out what was internal and triggers and just finding peace was a hard enough JOB. And out there more crap to my crap when craptometer is already running on overload. TODAY I FEEL ALRIGHT. First day in…

Healing is not about fighting feelings. I think the more we fight them the more neglected they become and come back worse and in ways that makes for a poor outles to say the least. These feelings cannot be neglected, and yet cannot be just discarted. THey have to be DEALTH with. In the realms of HEALING, we must recoup enough to no longer need them....to be able to let go, detach. It´s so much easier said than done. Some we think we are done with return from the dead given triggers and…

I remeber asking that myself sometimes when the worry sleeps with me and is stil present in the morning. Almost like a nightmare we fight the mind off to sleep, and it´s right there in the minute we wake up. For me thats the time to put some positive input in the brain. And since heading out and about even for a dog walk can be difficult with the pains in my back, I must try something else. Medicines altering the brain, I am very allergic. Thus in the times I´ve been in bed for over 6 years…

Here is something to help rescuing the mind from the negative thinking by replacing by positive thinking and ALLOW HEALING to take place. Guided meditation and music helps to bring the mindset back to the present and in the positive side of life. My favorites are from LOUISE HAY. There is more online. ENJOY!

Morning guided meditation 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4jNV1FV-_Os

Self Love…

As I start regaining grounds of my OWN LIFE, it´s amazing how many people love to through some crap to get a negative reaction. Of course if they touch my HURT the WRONG WAY, they gained just MORE DISTANCE form my feelings and life. It´s not about them. It´s about TIME my life is ABOUT ME. If they cared to SUPPORT my HEALING, they WOULD NOT be doing that. Settting me off will work just perfect knowing exactly where my HURT is, but in fact what they just EARNED was a greater physical distance…

Life CHANGES all the time according to our perception and choices and opportunities presented to us. Some changes are more abrupt and unwelcome than others. And some are more than welcome anytime. And we can´t wait for that change to happen. Fact is CHANGES are part of life, and acceptance makes a little easier every day. Coping with loss of course is time consuming and hard. And even when we come to accept, peers around us love to throw us right back where we were. By reminding how good it…

When we are healing, there is something obvious to us that may not be perceived by most. That time is just a convention. Time in our clocks are just for the rotation of the earth and makes easier to plan our dayly tasks. But healing makes day and nights alike and suffering seems a forever and around and beyond the clocks issue. Comes and goes the hurt with no invitation or time of the day. I think if we were to truly give TIME a meaning, we would have to know HOW LONG we would be alive…

Being the caregiver changed where I was going in more ways I could sense at the time. I was to remain single to take care of my ill mother. I was to have no life other than from emergency to emergency. I was to work and take care of myself AFTER the needs of my mother were taken care. I was not to go anywhere outside the city boundaries, and always near home and with the cel phone charged. I was not to drink one drop of alcohol just in case any emergency came up and I needed to drive. I was…