Developing a healthy self-care practice is an essential part of active grieving. Self-care in all its forms - physical, spiritual, intellectual and psychological - is at the very heart of purposeful grieving. As you're committed to growing through this experience of loss - of becoming more than you were before the passing of your loved one, not less - I offer you these self-care tips and ideas:

• Surround yourself with things that help you feel…

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Didn't mean to startle anyone. I didn't realize when I removed the "How long is the barrel"  blog it would remove all the posts as well.  At any rate, In the eloquently phrased words of Morgan, this is not a perfect world and that's when I realized Nancy would have none of this at all...so, right off the table it went. Now.I will join the "walk" and continue with everyone else here, walking together no matter how much of a bitch it may seem to be. The only other option is probably not the…

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I'm so beyond unhappy, so beyond miserable - just make the final twist in the dagger and be fucking done with it. My life has never been easy. That's a fact. I am so tired and can't seem to say it enough. I feel like I've tried to make my life work. Gary was the one thing that was finally starting to go right for me and then I lose it all with absolutely no warning. If I could of anticipated his death would that have changed my grief? I highly doubt it but at least certain preparations could…

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bean a bad 1 for tv loss so mush famos pepel pass in 2016 so sad

My mom was my only family its been almost a year since left. Every nite I cry. Every nite I look for a sign she has forgiven. If she can not forgive me then how do forgive myself. I promised her she would die in a hospital, and she did want people pray over her, she died in the arms of strangers..,,praying strangers.I keep hearing the words of doctor..,,,,you are tying my hands...her only hope is being put on life support. I did not listen. I showed him the den. He told me I would murdering her… Continue

My elder sister passed away on 24th September 2016. I do not know how to express myself. 

She had come to visit me on April as my uncle was here and i always complained that she did not come to visit me just me. She had said that she will come to visit me but then before she left we fought on something and i did not get to say a proper good bye to her. 

I was going to visit her on October and had even purchased air tickets and i did even texted her but she did…

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2 my cat lucy sorry i did not go 2 vets day u pass i cud not do it i cud not it wz do hrd 2 do go in coz i luv u so mush i do 

i miss smell of yore furr

yore sond off yore purrr

sodn of uore merar i cud say

u gvin me cat kissis liks u cud say 

u stol my hert u cud say day u died u brik my ehrt u did 

wish u wear stil hear 

wish u wear stil hear 2sea yore new adopt cats 2 2 be a big sirt well adopt big sisr sistr 2 thes 2  i miss u so mush  i…

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the holidays are so close, and I hate them so much any more. I pray every night to go with you, shawn im so broken, theres not a day or night I don't cry, and ask god why he took my son, my baby. and why he has not come for me. I know you are here with me, I feel you every day, but I need so much to hold you, please baby come for me, I cant live with this unbearable pain , I don't want to live, please help me to die,  im so lonely,  I love you always and forever, you are the love of my…

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So I've been going through this stage of things wondering how I could have done things differently if I had known that Rocky would live only 1 year from the time of our first visit to the Dr at Huntsman. The Dr said "6 months to 2 years"  Rocky and I wondered "when does the clock start on that?"  It started that day, and one year later my Rocky died.

How I wish I had…

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I keep hearing that song phrase over and over in my head, "you are everything, and everything is you." That is exactly how I feel about my beloved husband who left this earth just over a year ago.

I wish I could put into words the total feeling of loss and longing that I feel. My family is planning a trip and including me this Christmas. I will go along and pretend to have a good time; I will smile and chat,but, all the while, the real me is in a faraway place searching for memories of my… Continue

Many years ago when I was only 8 years old, my grandmother died. She, in essence, was my mother since my mine has passed when I was 6. The night my grandma died, I was sleeping in a small bed next to hers. She has been taken to the hospital while I was sleeping and died during the night. I awoke in the night, and keeping in mind that I was only 8 yrs. old, saw a cloud which looked like smoke above me to the right of my bed. I looked at it and wondered what it was. I heard my grandma say,… Continue

You know what's hard about this? I'm driving through my neighborhood and I see all the houses decked out. I see the tree inside and sometimes the people. Families enjoying the season.

Not me though. And I used to love this time of year. Even through all the Christmas's I was a single mom and lonely. I still got it together for my kids and that made it good for me.

But now I just look at these other people and it makes me feel incredibly alone and sad.

Why do I always end…

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