I have never had this feeling before. I know I have to let go of him, but I can't seem to do it. I went to a health fair the other day. They were collecting money for the American Cancer Society. Once you donated, you can put the name of to whom you are donating on a card they would hang on the wall. I couldn't do it. I couldn't imagine his name on one of those In Memory of cards. How do you let go? What holds me back? I don't know what I can do to actually let go and accept he is gone. I am…

i hope i dont upset any 1 4or bloging this or ofend any 1 4or bloging this i sumtims wonder is the god and the devil twins god the good twin and the devil the evil twin i no it the minit im upset how my dad died and he didnt deserve to die like tht on a dirty hospitle ward nobody deserve to die like tht only evil people who hurt kids and old people ill just sory in case i hav ofended any 1…

Father God~We come to you today~we have burdens,we have loses,we need your healing hands,,Father you know our issues..Touch our lives Father,ease our load,ease our hearts,heal our bodies...and Father thank you for your many mercies of forgiveness...thank you also Father for the Blessing you give us and show us Daily....Teach us to allow your will into our lives...guide our hearts to love as you love us...in your son Jesus Name we Pray~~~~Amen and Amen

There are huge differences between giving up and moving on. Moving on doesn't mean giving up, but rather accepting that there are some things that cannot be. Letting go and moving on can mean that you're making a choice to be happy rather than hurt. It doesn't mean that you're giving up. For few love can last a lifetime, but for many not knowing when to let go can hold them back forever.-SQ

Happy Birthday my sweet man.  Your first in Heaven.  I miss you so much and having the 4th of July without you was so hard. It's such an "in your face" holiday. I made it through somehow.  I know you are watching over us and I feel you directing us as a family like you always did.  God is with us also.  I am thankful to God that he gave me such a strong, wonderful, beautiful husband to share 33 years with.  You are truly and angel now, just as you were to so many hear on earth.  I will live…

My font size is a "little" bit to big I noticed, promise to downsize

Didn't know how hard my first Holiday without you would be, couldn't even get up the strength to leave the house. So use to preparing food for you to put on the grill and realizing our family traditions will never be the same. Everyone keeps telling me that what I feel is normal, but my life without you will never be normal. I Love you with all my heart and miss you like crazy. Loving you forever and always.

Iam not suicidal.Only in the food dept and Iam cutting down.Grief to me is like a heavy person sitting on your chest.

This morning I was sitting in front of the computer(the supervisors computer ohhh!)he wanted me to watch a certain reaction to resetting some badge readers This was on the computer.I was looking at a read out on the computer and I started to get (startling recreations of seeing my wife dying in the hosp)I had…

I Cry and grieve that you are Gone yet smile that you once lived....I close my eyes and beg and scream and pray that you come back...I open my eyes and look around and see all that you have left in memory's.....My heart is broken at the thought i will never see you, your smile , or hear your giggles so a life ....My heart is filled with love when i think all we did share. and the beautiful moments and memories you have left with me ....I turn my back on…

I am feeling pretty low right now...

I keep restarting this sentence over and over.. First it was "this week has been really difficult" then it was going to be "these past few weeks", than "last month" but the truth is things have been pretty bad for a long time now. I assumed that Julie dying was going to be the end of it, I tried really hard to get up and dust myself off, and put on a pretty smile for the world and dredge on.. but I feel like a runner with two broken…

I know Iam reaching the state of depression where I need to see someone. You know where it eats on you .I called a psycho therapist after she died and made an appointment. I canceled later.Well!!! I should have kept it Anyhow I manage to fight it off(depression) but ifeel its infected my bain.

 I really don't know how much more I can take. Everything you said your grown kids would try to pull they are. Why do they act like they care so much about you now that you are gone yet you never heard from them when you were sick!! I really wish you would have given them a copy of the will before, but then again you were not suppose to leave me!!! God why did you have to take him from me. He was just 51 and…

Tonight I took my daughter Isabella, my nephew Jake, My friend Tiff and her three daughters to see Brave in the Movie Theater.  I was glad to see a Disney Movie where the princess was her own hero and didn't need a prince to fix all her problems or a kiss to save her life. 

I have to admit it made me cry a bit with the mother/daughter story, but I thought this was a princess Julianna would have really loved!! Even something like a Disney movie reminds me of her, and her vibrant…

This has been such a lonely weekend for me. My mom has been gone now 7 months. I"m so sad and the deep depression does not get any better. I try to stay busy but, that doesn't help for 24 hours a day. I"m crying right now and I still feel angry at the cancer institute for the chemotherapy on my mom. I think that doctors don't worry about elderlyl and just give them the treatments without thinking of how fragile they are. I honestly don't know at this point,  how this world can become a good…

Iam going to post a bigger pictue of me  and my wife.The picture was taken years ago when I wasn,t fat

Me and my stepson go to a buddist temple session (service) every Sun .My wife was taiwanese. You go for 7 sun and this assures she goes to heaven(pureland)

Two more sun and we don,t have to go back. I don,t want to make it sound bad its just in chinese.The monks or clergyman(all woman) always help you and speak excellent english.There is a big difference bertween a…

I was reading the post about friends and family not really offering any support.Its awful when someone says "aww you,ll just get over it"Its hard for anyone to imagine what the loss of a love one is like.Its been a little over a month since my my wife died in hosp.Its just now Iam coming to grips with it.Thank goodness for this web site.Iam thinking of looking up other online support,groups etc .I don,t think I would be…

I FEEL LIKE WHEN I LOST MY HUSBAND I LOST EVERYTHING.MY LIFE STOPPED.AND I DON'T KNOW HOW TO MOVE FORWARD.I MISS HIM EVERYDAY AND CRY FOR HIM EVERYDAY.I ASK GOD EVERYDAY TO PLEASE BRING HIM BACK.WHEN HE PASSED AWAY ALL OF OUR FRIENDS STOPPED CALLING,STOPPED COMMING BY.AND MY FAMILY MEMBERS,ALL THEY CAN SAY IS YOU'LL BE ALRIGHT,DON'T THINK ABOUT.AND I'M ALONE AND THAT'S ALL I DO.THINK ABOUT IT...SO I THOUGHT MAYBE I COULD GET SOME SUPPORT HERE FROM PEOPLE WHO ARE GOING THROUGH THE SAMETHING I…