Thanks for keeping me updated about your husband, hope he gets a new liver.

I just have my dad to worry about, my brother and I aren't close, he won't get involved with a grief group and I can't really give him the support he needs.

My mom died of pulmonary failure/severe COPD. I think she knew that she was going to die. The last time we spoke on Christmas Eve, she told me not to cry.

She said she didn't want my brother and I to see her this way, and on Christmas day she lapsed into a coma and she died on Dec 27, 2012. She was in a nursing home in Crete, NE which is about 15 miles or so from where I live. Its a complicated story but she had been living away from my dad, brother and me for several years. I last saw her last November, when she was pretty tired and out of it. We talked on the phone a lot in the spring and summer of last year, the calls tapered off somewhat in the fall and winter as she started to decline.

I miss talking to her, having her as my confidante, my dad is grieving too, but I don't really feel like he understands my grief at all, which makes sense since the relationship is different.

I listen to music, chat and send messages to people on here and watch TV, and movies, its doubly hard for me because I need to find a job, take care of my dad and myself and also grieve so it all gets pretty overwhelming.

I'm sure you know the feeling of being emotionally overwhelmed.

I"ve heard that time, talk and tears is a crucial part of the grieving process and its good that you have your faith.

Grieving is a process, if you like to read there are lots of books on grief.