I work at a building with over a thousand employees, there is a lot of small talk waiting for elevators and walking from the parking structure. This morning an upbeat co-worker got off the phone with his parents and two stepped to catch up with me for small talk the rest of the way to the office. He started his convo with "ah parents" and I froze. I didn't know what to do or say. Long story short it gutted me and was the worst 3 minutes of my life. Immediately followed by the next worse ten…

so kinda irritated cause I didn't notice where I was typing this long story from this morning that left me gutted. I put my whole heart into it and went to hit "share" and it's just deleted. Right now I feel like I can't even mourn my parents right. Crazy how quickly sadness can turn to anger. It's my own fault which just makes it worse cause I have nobody to blame. I'll retype the story and see if it helps me. Again. }:/