Thanks so much for your comment and prayers Laura. It is reassuring to hear, and I know I am probably over worrying, but I immediately associate the "C" word with death now and after seeing my mother suffer so much the thought of my sister ever having to go through it herself terrifies me.

Thanks again for the comment. Big hugs.

Hi Laura,

    I'm so sorry to hear you broke your wrist, among all else you are dealing with. You are in my thoughts and I really do care, too. Godfrey is about 3 hours to the south of Decatur, I think. That would be great to meet one of these days. In the meantime, I'm a good listener if you ever want to talk.

     Things are rough here, too. I miss Dale every day, and have had dreams about him almost every night for the last few weeks. I just finished a research project for one of my music therapy classes and it was about music therapy for caregivers of loved ones in home hospice. Because of what I've been through, it was a very passionate project for me, but if it can help others, then it is very much worth it. If you're interested in reading it, I could email you a copy. It was a "fantasy" research, something we'd like to do if we had unlimited resources, unlimited budget. I presented it in class on Wednesday the 7th, (ironically the 13th anniversary of my father's death) and everyone seemed to like it. I have an audition and interview with an upscale residential facility for Alzheimer/dementia clients in St. Louis. It's 6 months, full time, unpaid. I am praying my finances will hold out long enough. I know Dale is up there cheering me on. He really believed that I was meant to be a music therapist.

Dale's Dad (my former father in-law) died Nov. 20th, and unfortunately because of strained family relationships since Dale's death, (long and very sad story), I didn't go to the funeral or even the visitation. I did send a sympathy card and a note to Dale's Mom. I just felt that I didn't need the extra grief from them and didn't want to bring them any more. Like I said, long and sad story that has completely devastated me...how horrible I've been treated by them.

So sorry to have gotten on that topic. Anyway...with everything plus now the holidays, I know it is very hard for all of us who have lost loved ones. As I said, you are in my thoughts, and I do care, too.

Laura,

     I am so sorry that it has taken this long to answer your message...  My husband and I were "rear ended" on October 22 and I have really has problems with my back and neck.  This seems to have taken all my energy.  I also have to go to the doctor 3 times per week for therapy etc.

     How are you sleeping?  I noticed that you had been having trouble... is it any better?  You might try taking one Benedryl or a generic.  That is what I have been taking since I to have been having trouble sleeping also.

Another idea - I pray when I can't sleep.  My memory is not so good or I have so many things and people to pray about that I had to make a list.  I added sleep to my "prayer list" and it works too...

What are your plans this month?  How are you doing?  Let me know because I care...

May the God of all comfort wrap his loving arms around you. (2 Thessalonians 2:16-17) "may our Lord Jesus Christ himself and God our Father,...comfort YOUR hearts…”

Brenda

mawmaw1591@gmail.com

Hi Laura,

    Thank you for accepting my friend request. I see that you live in Decatur, Illinois...I live just a little south of you in Godfrey, Illinois!

Laura, my sister's doctor wants me to get a head to toe check for cancer. I guess I should do it. How are you? Hope your compter is well and stays that way. No matter what happens, God is always a good friend. He listens when we pray and we listen to him when we read the Bible. Pick out scriptures that are encouraging to you and go back to re-read them when you need to be built up. Of course, you can contact me anytime. Do you have any questions that you would like answered from the Bible? Talking about the Bible brings me great happiness. It also helps my family with the sad times.

hi, Laura I tried messaging you a few times on the chat log. I can't see m to sleep tonite. I'm almost about ready to take something to sleep. I just want to go to sleep tonite so I can stop crying. kwim?

Melissa