My husband and best friend of 53 years passed away on June 12, 2011.  This is all so very new to me.  I started a journal and have written 35 pages so far.  That is helping me get my thoughts out of my mind and down on paper.  I thought the worst day of my life was the day he died but relized the worst days started the next day when I could no longer physically touch him.  Can write any more right now.  Will get back to this later.  My sincere condolances to all who have lost a loved one.