I feel so lost without my grandma. Grandma and I talked on the phone for hours on end these past 5yrs or so. I knew she was going to pass eventually I just didnt think it was going to be now. My life has turned upside down literly since I lost her. I not only lost her but I also lost my job shortly there after. I ever since the funeral have been having these crying spells that come and hit me like a ton of brickes and come out of nowhere. I will be fine for a day or so then all of a sudden crash and burn.