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Comment by Dianne M. on April 10, 2015 at 1:54pm

this is just horrid. we had so many plans and I just sit here and look at his picture and cry....I have no kids or siblings...he was all I had...why is he gone....

Comment by George H on April 10, 2015 at 1:52pm

Dianne m I'm alone most of the time so I do understand what your talking about

Comment by Dianne M. on April 10, 2015 at 1:30pm

Yes hell it is I have said that more than once lately. Today is very bad for whatever reason. I hate being here alone and it just lets my mind run wild on all the what if's and why's.....

Comment by Tildyc on April 10, 2015 at 1:20pm

George- yes it's hell. I completely agree with you on this.

Comment by George H on April 10, 2015 at 10:18am

I have always belived that when we die our energy moves to a different plane but I ju st don't go for the god heaven and he'll stuff I think that I am in hell right now

Comment by lost on April 10, 2015 at 4:57am

I'm scared. It's been just over a month since my honey passed. I'm scared of life. I'm scared of death. I'm scared to live without James. I don't know how to be Juanita. I am 57yrs old. I've been someone's wife or mother for 41yrs. I don't know how to be me. Who is me?

Comment by Tildyc on April 10, 2015 at 12:06am

m morgan- HS!!! That's alot of information to take in. But – I do see where you're coming from on this. And it does require a little bit more of my time to absorb and consider it all. Some would call it a far fetched theory but – that's how all scientific fact starts out right? Yes... Thank you m morgan for sharing what you have researched and learned because, it is inspiring.

For me – I've never been what someone would call scientifically inclined. I've dealt with obstacles in that area in my life which has limited me in some ways. But I know what I feel, and I've gained many skills and tools. And in my humbling and painful experience thus far – I have begun to accept the thought as humans/ energy/ souls, we are capable of connections that are beyond what we can completely comprehend in the physical and mental state that we are existing in right now. I am still hurting and grieving constantly. But I'm also constantly searching for answers... And for my Mark.

Comment by morgan on April 9, 2015 at 11:15pm

(PART 2)  So in my more philosophic, introspective moments I try to swallow the bitter pill of an end and stop my crying.  My tears are the waves of my energy, my consciousness spilling out in a physical form a frequency that is helping my body maintain equilibrium but eventually it will be too much for it.  The frequency will at some point need to go to its more fundamental state and my body cells will lose the force of staying in this dimension. I will become a part of the whole again where my energy will be free to travel through the cosmos and connect with the manifestation of love that I was connected to here.  He will be there.  Not in a visceral or supernatural form but in the most fundamental of forms we call energy.   A form more sugggestively visual as a wave where we will ebb and flow just like we did here only in a different dimension.  He’s out there.  The universe is too big for him not to be. 

Comment by morgan on April 9, 2015 at 11:15pm

Tildyc & Trina - (PART 1) You get it.  We all get it.  It is all the process of the stark realization of what it means to lose the connection in the physical realm of the one person who made you whole.  Some people don't ever get to be whole, they never find love but then they don't miss what they never had.  Then there are some people who think they found a connection but they are not as enlightened about who they are and so their vibration becomes a very weak connection to love and eventually dissipates.  Then there are those of us who understand what we need and we find an energy that matches ours.  We dance to our own frequency.  And then one horrible day we don't because other energies are interfering.  That’s when we hit the brick wall full speed.  In physics it’s like the interference pattern.

At one point I thought the desire to die, the recognition of seeing the consequences of others deaths and dying was morbid.  Although I still find it terribly upsetting to deal with my current situation I have tried to gain an awareness of the whole why/what/how of this life-death cycle.  

The study of physics has given me a place to go to help me wrap my head around the silence.  I will never be the same person.  How could I be. I have witnessed and now been transported to a different dimension where I now have to live while I wait for my own frequency to change one more time.  This is all more than morbid, it is surreal, you hit the nail on the head.  Other worldly. There is nothing that i have ever experienced that would give me the same feeling of having been taken to live in another world but this is it.  I can focus a little bit better now (two years plus down the line) on the 3D world through my eyes which for quite awhile were very distorted but I will never mentally interpret what I see other than through eyes that have been forever altered.  Which is why I need to try and elevate my mind to integrate the possibility that my husband is here with me but because of his newer vibration of his energy he is not visible.  It is a function of the frequency.  His energy was never destroyed.  It has changed form.  His vibrating frequncy changed.   I think he has returned to the quantam state and he is not in the space-time continuim we recognize as our reality.  But I have to believe that our energy exists and has and will exist into infinity.  It is all just an arrangement of the waves of the universe and how it manifests itself.  Kind of like the ocean. But the waves never remain the same.  When I don’t believe it and I go into the hole now more than ever I  get sucked into thinking the universe has nothing more to reveal to us.  Yet if we really think big and not think in the hole we know that empty space is not empty.  It’s full of all the wave lengths that are being transmitted throughout all this empty space.  We just cannot prove it, see it or have a brain big enough to imagine it.  Yet.

 

Comment by Tildyc on April 9, 2015 at 10:51pm

John T- yep – that's pretty much what this is ... Enduring this pain.....Like we have a choice. Ha.

And I could never take my own life because- the thought of there's the chance- that such an act would separate me for eternity from him- is completely unacceptable. So therefore, in this lifetime I really don't have hope but – after it's over.... When it ends.... There... is perhaps..where hope lives?

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