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Comment by Tildyc on April 26, 2015 at 2:42pm

Sunday is my Monday. I'm working today and everywhere I go the overhead music is playing songs that really remind me of him or they're sad and about loss. I woke up missing him and crying this morning and this is making it even harder. I'm trying to work but I just want to go hide somewhere. I can't control my tears and sadness from everyone. Nor can I cover my watery, red eyes. Omg- someone plz get me out of this hell

Comment by Dianne M. on April 26, 2015 at 9:45am

We adopted 5 dogs and 2 cats together. With the 2 of us it could be a bit much but alone it is sometimes a nightmare. But I will not re home them they were adopted with good intentions and I will honor that. At least they give me something to do each day. And lots of love.

Another empty day to look forward to....

Comment by George H on April 26, 2015 at 6:35am

don't know why the days have names can't tell one from the other my life is just one large septic tank of shit without Mary in it where was the all-knowing merciful God on February 24

Comment by bluebird on April 25, 2015 at 10:29pm

For me personally, once our cat dies (though i hope he lives a long and happy life,and i will always take care of him), i will never adopt another animal, because i don't want anyone (including pets, after our cat is gobe) to depend on me, partly because i don't know if/when i will kill myself, and i won't abandon a pet like that.

That said -- for those of you who are worried/afraid about being alone after your current pets are gone, please remember that there are many, many thousands of pets in shelters just waiting to be adopted. Adopting them would definitely help them, and might help you too.

Comment by Tildyc on April 25, 2015 at 10:21pm

John T- Alone. That is the very definition of my life now. Our dogs are the only beings that are around me every day. Without them- I probably be in the mental wing of the hospital. And the fact that I'm going to most likely out live them.. Fills me with absolute dread and loneliness.

Comment by Dianne M. on April 25, 2015 at 7:53pm

George we must have had the same kind of day...I asked the same thing...

Comment by George H on April 25, 2015 at 7:51pm

Living without Mary seems to get harder every day my life is so f***ING empty the only thing I've been able to ask her all day is why did you die I'm just so broken

Comment by Jason on April 25, 2015 at 6:54pm

I can't stand the weekends either. During the week I can distract myself with work or the gym but at weekends I have nothing to do but sit and think. My friends and family are busy with their families and lives like we should have been but now i'm alone. So I sit alone and drink and think of happier times with amanda and wait for monday so I can start over again

Comment by morgan on April 25, 2015 at 2:23pm

Dianne- so sorry.  The crying.  Its seems endless.  The questions.  They are endless.  I am 63 and told I have a full life ahead of me.  Like you I  had what I wanted.  I have no need for anything else.  Some of the despair will lessen as you live but the hate of what this life holds…. Well, I end up pleading for an end.  I am extremely tired.  Exhausted battling the ups and downs.  And there are ups.  But this is  by far the worst time of my life.  Am I safe?  Yes.  Do I have a house I can live i and pay the bills?  Yes.  Do I want to be here?  No.  I wish for all of us I could make it different.  I just want to escape.  That's all, just escape.

Comment by Dianne M. on April 25, 2015 at 1:53pm

I am just sitting here crying out loud. I just hate this life without him. He was so good and loving and I miss his touch and voice. Why did he die??? Why am I alone??? None of this makes any sense....I am too old to start over. Our life was the best and the last 20 were everything I wanted in a marriage. Now I have nothing....

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