Hello everyone, my name is Brittany. I am new to this and not quiet sure how this works. My therapist pointed me in this direction so i thought i would give it a try. I am 24 years old from Wisconsin. I met my boyfriend, Kyle, last March through a mutual friend. We clicked instantly. He was tall, buff and had the most amazing eyes. I felt butterflies in stomach right when i saw him. We chatted for awhile and i came to learn he went to Minnesota to play football for 5 years. Football was his life and his biggest accomplishment. He was so proud of everything he had done at only the age of 25. I fell for him right there and then. We spent all last summer laughing, spending every single minute with each other, going to country concerts, riding his motorcycle all around the town and just having the time of our lives. He was so amazing and so perfect. We started to get really serious towards the end of summer and made everything official. We did everything together. He was my whole life. We spent the holidays together, it was perfect. We used to talk about our future a lot. How many kids we wanted, where we should get married, the house we would live in. It was amazing. He would talk about our future with such excitement. We decided it was time for us to get our first apartment together. Our official move in date was August 13th. We were both so happy and excited to finally have a place to call our own. He made everything perfect for me and made sure the house was VERY clean everyday. That was my favorite part of Kyle. He was a super neat freak. Our apartment was never dirty. He was perfect. We spent the first week setting everything up and making sure it was nice and homey for us. We loved it. We would come home each day after work and we would just sit and watch tv, make dinner together and just enjoy each others company. Everytime he would walk into the door, his face would light up when he saw me and he would come over, give me a kiss and say "i missed you today". This happened everyday and i loved every second of it. The love we had was something really special. We both felt it and were both so obsessed with each other. Everything was starting to fall into place. I had the perfect home, the perfect boyfriend who wanted to marry me and an amazing job. On November 2nd, Kyle and i laid in bed and talked about how much we loved each other. He told me he was so happy he met me and that he was the happiest he had ever been. That was the last time Kyle and i were able to talk about our happy future. On November 4th, Kyle left our house at 5:30, on his motorcycle, to deposit his check and get a haircut at 6:20. We lived 10 minutes from the haircut place. He snapchatted me at 6:00 and said "im early" with a goofy face. I snapped him back and told him to go in already. That was the last time i ever got to talk to my amazing boyfriend. I started to clean the house for him when he left. The next time i looked at the clock, it was 7:45. I knew something was wrong, i could feel it in my stomach, it felt like i was going to puke. He was always so good at telling me he got places safely when he was on his bike. I called my mom hysterically crying telling her i could feel something was wrong. She calmed me down and right when i hung up the phone, the police buzzed into my apartment. And at that moment i knew my life was over and that i had lost the love of my life. Everything after that is a blurr. At 6:40 when Kyle was on his way home to me, a car didn't see him on the motorcycle and there was an accident. The guy got scared because he didnt see him and thought he could then cut him off across the street. The suv flipped, kyle slammed on his brake and tried to lay the bike down, but he was too late. The car hit him and that's where my boyfriend died. A block away from his parents house, and about a mile away from our apartment. This has been the worst thing that has ever happened to me. He was my world. And its so horrible because we never got the chance to have a future together. We were robbed of a future at just the ages of 24 and 25. He was so amazing and i miss him everyday. Its been almost a month and i still feel like it happened just yesterday. I loved Kyle with all my heart.