Hi Brittany, I sent you some messages on chat. I'm very sorry for your loss. It is still so early for you so I'm sure you might still be in shock over what has happened. I believe Kyle will send you signs. This happened for me a lot in those first few months, at least that's what I choose to believe. I felt things that I can't explain with my whole heart and soul and that brought me some comfort. I tried to keep myself busy by writing down all the special memories we shared, things we laughed at together, special things about him that made my heart beat faster. Sometimes I will go back and read those journals just to feel close to him.

You are so young- I am a few years older than you- and one of the hardest parts of losing a love at a young age is the isolation. None of my friends have been through this so many avoided me in fear of upsetting by bringing up his name. It has been extremely hard to watch other people live their lives while I live in hell and pain missing the person who made me so giddy. I still have bad days and it's almost two years since he has been gone. 

Therapy is good for something like this. This forum is also helpful and supportive if you feel your friends and family cannot relate. 

My advice is cry when you need to. Don't hold in the hurt, that will only make it worse. Try talking to him. Print any pictures of him and make a memory box, anything to preserve the memory of him. 

Hugs to you.