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Comment by jen j on March 21, 2011 at 7:51pm

i am 20 years old. my bestfriend died of an overdose and i miss her so much and my whole life is consumed with everything about her. she is what i think about from the moment i wake up to when i go to bed. i cry everyday. it will be 2 years this july. its been so hard on me. i dont talk to anyone. i just need help.

Comment by Diane Grell on February 15, 2011 at 8:44am

Dear Brittany

 

Honey, you are going to go through a wide range of emotions before you can come to terms to deal with this in your own way. The biggest and hardest will be the feeling of being betrayed.

Just remember, you may feel as half of you is gone, but you do have the two girls to raise. They need your love and understanding too. It's been 2 years for me. I didn't think I'd make it. And sometimes I still get weepy and play the "what if" game with myself.

To be honest, talking to people about it helps a lot. If you need to seek counseling don't feel weak. Just go. You have a lot going on.

 

We are here for you!

 

Diane

Comment by Brittany Hensley on February 14, 2011 at 6:31pm

I lost my husband two and a half weeks ago to an over dose. He was taking prescription pain killers behind my back. I woke up one morning and rolled over to wake him and he was gone. He was 30 yrs old and me 25. I just don't know what to do or where to go.  I have moved me and our daughter into my parents house and quit my job. I feel has half of me is now gone. I can't even begin to understand going on with life. I hope that this place can give me some help with everything.

Comment by Cheryl on February 6, 2011 at 9:09pm

I wish you and your dad were close because together you could do more.  I'm so sorry.  I'll be praying.

Comment by Marie Carr on February 6, 2011 at 6:13pm

I am so upset cos the hospital refused to give my mum a colostomy, they wouldnt even try and save her. my mum was Catholic and didnt want them to give up.  When she was in Hull hospital they had given up and she had loads and loads of morphine.  She looked a hundred years old i couldnt believe it.  She had always looked so so young her skin hd gone wrinkley.  I kept calln mum mum mum! she opened her eyes then lifted her finger to answer my question do you want to go back on dialysis,  The doctor kept sayn it was a twitch then agen she opened her eyes and managed to answer me and said yes wn i asked her in front of the nurse.  They put her bk on eventually then she went to Scarborough hospital, but doc was taking advice from hull doc.  I am afraid I hate that doc, who doesnt seem to care wn i asked him to explain wt happened he was vague and uncaring.  I have sent of two forms to get her medical records which will cost fifty pounds each hos.  Scar hos said i can have them i dont know about Hull cos i am nt next of kin my Dad who i have difficulty talking to, is next of kin.

Comment by Marie Carr on February 6, 2011 at 6:03pm

Thankyou I would like you to pray for my brother and I.  My brother is called Andrew Joseph Carr.  I was so close to my Mum I cant believe what happend to her.  I still feel she couldve been saved by the hospital.  I feel my Dad couldve rushed her to hospital much sooner.  He new it was really serious, but just said i should hurry n see her while she was still here.  But still he hadnt sent her to hospital.  Turned out she had a stroke, She was on home dialysis on a Baxter machine my dad was doing her dialysis cos he wasnt happy with how nurses were doing it.  So he took over.  He is not really a socialble person and didnt like people in his house.  Next to my mum i am closest to my brother but am scared i am going to lose him.  He has put on so much weight due to medication.  He used to be really thin. I think this is affecting his physical health.  He was a drug addict years ago then went on to alcohol and became an alcoholic.  One of his friends lost his life through alcohol poisoning another drug overdose another jumped of a bridge cos she was scizophrenic, like my other brother.  I thought this would make him think how drink n drugs would be dangerous for him but he took every thing  he could.  I have even dreamt that he d died through drug over dose and the dream was so real.  I also dreamt i lost my mum after she lost alot of weight, she died in my arms.. this was befor she stopped eating due to her bowel not working properly and losing weight.  She was fine not yet on dialysis or anything.  Its like it was a preminition cos it happend like that nearly the same as i was with her when i lost her.  I will prey for you to, sorry for going on an d on

Comment by Cheryl on February 6, 2011 at 5:23pm

Oh Marie I am so sorry for what you must be going through! With your permission, I will hold you and your brother up in prayer.  Your brother is being deceived by the devil, the father of all lies!  God loves your brother and will never ask him or anyone else to take their own life.

Comment by Marie Carr on February 6, 2011 at 4:22pm

My brother, on pescription drugs twenty tablets a day.  He keeps sayn he is gettn messages from the radio from God to kill himself.  We recently lost our mum August 2010, now he keeps sayn this to me.  He was in secure section for one year but now in a hospital because he is still not ready to look after himself.  I havent come to terms with losing my mum who i miss so much.  I just dont know wt to do cos my brother has tried to overdose a few times and survived becos someone has saved him.  once in my house wn i had let him live here for a couple of years.  This was quite a number v years ago.  Then three yrs ago he set light to his hair after pouring petrol over him self, his ex had to put flames out and call for help.  He was in secure section for a yr.

Comment by Cheryl on February 6, 2011 at 3:34pm

Hi everyone. Years of street and prescription drug addiction has damaged my brother's mind.  I don't know what worse anymore.  I lost one brother suddenly to Cocaine and am losing this one slowly to more drugs.  Would those of you who are Christian please pray for me? For my brother Sam?  I just don't have anything in me left to deal with it anymore.  We have lost 3 other brothers and both parents.

Comment by Pam Brooks on February 6, 2011 at 1:03pm

Thanks Diane.   My daughter was so secretive and didn't discuss anything that was bothering her.  I know she didn't want me to worry, but I had no idea she was even using that stuff.  I knew she had been very depressed.  The day she died was the day she was suppose to call me and come spend the weekend with me.  Of course that never happened, and I'm still clueless as to what really happened that fateful night and the next day. Thank you all for sharing your stories. It really helps me.

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