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Comment by Mary on May 4, 2012 at 8:20am

My mom passed away in March of this year, just 21 days after she was diagnosed with a brain tumor. I miss her so much my heart aches and I can't stop crying and I can't function, I don't want to function.  I felt her so near me the first few days after she died but now I don't.  It consumes my thoughts thinking I will never get to hug her again, never get to hear her voice, tell her I love her and hear her say it back.  It hurts so much.

Comment by Toyanne on May 4, 2012 at 6:07am

On May 9, 2012 it will be 2 years since my mom passed away. I wish that she was still hear with me and my family. I think and look at her picture everyday. It still hasn't got any easier since her death.

Comment by Sue Waxman on May 3, 2012 at 11:36am

It is the personality we miss when they are gone, but their souls and love remains.

Comment by Sue Waxman on May 3, 2012 at 11:32am

Hello Everyone,

Last night I received another phone message from my mother on my cell phone. It said "Sue It's Momma". Thats all. Funny thing is she hated it was I called her "Momma". She would say don't call me "Momma"! And I would laugh. This is the 3rd call on my cell phone. I let my boss listen to it so someone would believe or possibly believe me. My mother passed June 26, 2011. It is NOT an old message because they are all deleted after 21 days. It's my mother. She contacts me because I have opened the possibilites for her to do so. Please....get your heart and mind to a place that is not filled with anger and complete pain. Thats when you hear from them. I swear to my Lord Jesus Christ I am being completely honest with you all. Love Sue

Comment by Tammy Dresslar on May 3, 2012 at 6:18am

Somedays I feel like superwoman, others I feel like I need one. I have been going through my moms stuff and am pretty much done. Now it's time to plan her service. Almost 3 months now. No help from the family, and I feel like I can't break down. Someone's got to do this. But I am breaking down. I am an emotional wreck. All these questions. Would she have lived longer living with me instead of the nursing home? Should I have went against her wishes and recesitate her? Will I really ever see her again? Did she hear me when I said my last good-byes?

Comment by Melissa Broome on April 30, 2012 at 4:33am

Hello all sorry been MIA for a while, my moms been gone a yr as of April 7th. and guess what?? it still sucks! Not getting easier for me. Today would have been my moms 55th birthday to young in my opinion to be gone. We always celebrated together since my birthday is 4 days after hers. last yr I was too numb to feel the hurt so it's very raw for me this yr. I hate feeling so negative towards every celebration but how can I feel like celebrating now that's she's gone? Her death has truly changed me as a person, I'm not happy. I know she would be upset at me for this but I can't. I'm not happy without her. Now my children get to grow up with a depressed moody mother joy for them. Well guess they won't miss me when It's my time to die. Sorry all I'm having an off day, I'm not always this negative and I do try to put on a happy face for my kiddo's I'm blessed to have them.

Comment by Storyas Fawnfeather on April 28, 2012 at 8:51pm

Linda, watch for After Death Experiences.  They are very real.  A lot of them happened to me, especially after my dad died but after my mom died too.  My dad was a much more aggressive personality than my mom, so I think he was able to get through easier, so I got a lot of messages from him.  As close as the two of you were, I bet she is giving you messages.  Just keep watching for them.  I bet she keeps trying till she finds the one that catches your attention.  Blessings to you.

Comment by Linda on April 28, 2012 at 9:45am

I just try to think of the manu happy times with mom
and when ai walk in her room she would smilr from ear to ear and would be like she hadn't seen me.in.ages. i.would say 'whatif you think i had forgotten you' she would say 'ues''yes' i would say 'I couldnt ever forget you cause your my sweet beautiful mama' lol ahe would just smile. Give me a hug and a sloppy kiss. Those little intimate moments are what I.miss the most

Comment by Storyas Fawnfeather on April 28, 2012 at 9:33am

Linda, when I first got to the funeral and saw him in the casket, i fell apart as I told you in my last post.  But, once everyone got me calmed down and I started to be surrounded by family and friends I actually calmed down and was able to be okay through the rest of the funeral.  I think all you can do now is find comfort in the fact that it will be over soon and that you will have family around you to support you.  The dread of it - I never found an answer for that.  I just kept pushing through and staying busy making arrangements and the being busy helped a little.  I just wish there was some easy answer or a magic wand I could wave over your head and make it okay, but unfortunately life doesn't work that way.  I do know that you have the strength to get through it.  You probably don't realize now what a monumental feat it was taking care of your mom for 18 years, but it was a monumental feat.  If you can do that, you can do anything.  The only problem is that the things that were hard when you were taking care of her were combined with the joy of the comfort you brought her and the love you shared with her, and you don't have that in the funeral part.  But, once this is all over and look back you are going to realize the strength of steel you had to allow you to take care of her for 18 years.  And, I know that wherever we go when we die (wherever it is I do know from the after death experiences I had that it is good) that she is so so so very grateful for what you did for her.  I'm sure she is thanking God right now that you were in her life to love her so much.  My dad spent his last year in a horrible abusive nursing home, because he was too bad to be away from an Rn.  But, they were so bad to all the residents that I still ended up staying there around the clock and taking care of him cuz the aides wouldn't do it and only one Rn would do it.  Once her shift was over, I would be begging nurses to do the things for him I couldn't do, and he waited as long as 17 hours sometimes.  They did heavily fine the owner of the nursing home and close it down.  But, I learned from that experience that very few old people get the kind of care you and I and many others on this site gave our parents, and you should be proud of yourself for that.

Comment by Linda on April 28, 2012 at 9:25am

Hi Storyas
thank you for your kind words. My mama was cremated here in Seattle and we are fr Indiana and so I am taking her ashes back home ro Indiana for her funeral/memorial services services. We are having it at the church where my grandparents attemded and where her ashes will be.laid to rest. So there will be no funeral director or staff. But will have my aunts there for moral support. It's very hard just thinking about her and speaking her name makes me cry, cant imagine how hard the services will be

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