MARY A BLANDFORD

Female

Perryville, MO

United States

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About Me:
I have had many surgeries due to Degenerative Arthritis. I have had Cervical Spine Fusion. Volunteer at County Health Office. Like to garden.
About my Loss:
Lost my Husband of nearly 40yrs to brief period diagnosed with Renal Cancer in October 2015 and passed away December 15,2015. He was 58 yrs old, and I am devastated by his loss. It is hard to get out of bed and face the day knowing that he will never return as hard as I pray and hope. We were high school sweethearts and looked forward to seeing each other at the end of everyday. Our best times were sitting in the back yard on the swing and watching the birds come in to feed. We would just hold hands and know that each other was there for the other, spiritually and emotionally. I miss him so terribly and can not imagine living out my life without him. I have no reason to live on or any desire to. He was my everything, he was faithful to his Catholic religion, gentle, forgiving, patient and always kind to me and everyone. He was a great Father and the perfect Husband. He made me a better person.
Are You a Service Provider? If Yes, please tell us about your service.
I am a retired/disabled Radiologic Technologist.

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  • Mary

    Sending you hugs and praying for comfort. I know how you feel and it is a difficult road. I too lost my high school sweetheart 9 months ago. He was 52. What you have described is also how I feel. The only reason I am still here is for my kids. But I too have lost my life partner and so now what is there - except for our kids. I wish you peace and comfort. Mary

    Feb 20, 2017

  • Mary

    Hi Mary. I'm not sure how this reply thing works. But I just wanted to say that I don't have any answers. I totally understand the deep ache you feel for your husband. It is hard to do life each day. Hard to start the day without that one person who means so much to you. It's been 10 months for me and I feel the loss more each day. I've lost the joy in my heart. My Neil was so special and filled me with love, happiness and joy. I only am here for my kids as my youngest is 16. But honestly I rather not be here or just stay in bed all day. People say life goes on, indeed it does, but I don't want to participate in it without my Neil. The love of my life. My worst fear was losing him, and it happened. He was only 52. And I'm devestated
    I wish I could tell you something inspiring but just know that you are not alone. Sending you peace

    Feb 27, 2017