Copper "Charlie"

Female

Stanley, NC

United States

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About Me:
I love to write - poetry, sci-fi, fantasy, sword & sorcery - anything of that nature. I have over half a dozen stories currently in progress. I've never been able to focus on just one to the exclusion of all else for very long. Since my husband's passing, I'm considering getting into archery, shooting, perhaps going to see a movie near my birthday, something we hadn't been able to do in years because of his surgery and cancer. I've got an entire house to get into order -- painting and working on replacing the floors is a project I look forward to. Perhaps if I can get into better shape, hiking and camping will return to my life. My favorite thing in all the world to do is dance. I haven't been physically able to dance in well over a decade or more. I miss it so very much. I'd like to have the ability to have outdoor fires and who knows, perhaps get back to throwing clay and making pottery.

But no matter what I do...it feels as though it will be so empty without him. I will be so empty without him. I loved him so much!

Update...I haven't done not one of those things I listed in the 1st paragraph. I have no desire to even try them anymore. I feel so very alone.
About my Loss:
On July 13, 2015, my mother passed away after a sudden, unexpected hospitalization and complication with pancreatitis. She was in agony for 9 days before they figured out the pancreas had ruptured. My daughter stayed with her the first couple of nights, then I stayed with her the rest of the time, as things were so iffy. My father stayed during the day.

On August 13, 2015, my husband of 13 years had a sudden heart failure. Forty minutes after he started having symptoms, he was gone. He was my everything. My heart, my soulmate, my world. I miss him so very much. My heart is shattered.

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  • Tildyc

    Hi- I'm so so sorry for your multiple heartbreaks. This life we have to walk is total BS now. From happiness and security to darkness and paralyzing fear of the rest of your my life.

    I do hunt though. My Mark was a experienced, avid and extremely successful hunter. He had his own Commercial fishing boa and was a true Alaskan. He was amazing.

    I have hunted throughout my life having been born and raised Alaskan but, not like he did. Now I've inherited his rifles and hunting gear. So I've been hitting it hard. 1- in tribute to him and 2- I don't have him filling out freezer anymore.

    I have now been able to begin to understand his passion for hunting. It makes me sad yet comforts me at the same time. So ya- just wanted to share that aspect with you. Take care- and I wish you peace.

    Oct 5, 2015