I'm a pretty easy going person. I love to be around people. And love to make new friends. My friends tell me that I'm pretty funny, smart, and a great listener.
About my Loss:
About 7 months ago my sister Meagan died. It was sudden. I had happened to be 5 months pregnant at the time.. When the coroner called me and told me it was a horrible feeling, but the worst part was having to call everyone and tell them especially my mother..... Most people I told didn't believe me and called me a liar and hung up on me... Of course they called me back and told me sorry, but I understood.... But anyways like I said before I was 5 months pregnant so I couldn't grieve like a normal person would in fear of hurting or worse losing my baby... So once my son was born the grieving process started and in the past 3 1/2 months I have went through denial and anger pretty quickly..... And now I am afraid that I am in my depression stage and it is really hard because I have a baby that needs me, but I can't come out of this. I am just so saf all the time and that then makes me angry.... I think I am starting to scare my husband..... I try to talk to him and my friends but they just don't understand..... My friends have kinda gotten to the point where they can't stand to see my name on their Caller ID. My husband tries to help, but he just doesn't know how... I don't know what to do anymore...
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I'm so sorry for your loss. I understand your pain. I lost my only sister when she was 4 years old I was 10 I'm 35 years old now and sometimes I wish she was here so bad. Almost 2 months ago I lost my dear friend due to an accidental overdose. I miss him so much. I'm also a mother. All I can say is that your baby needs you and your sister would want you to be happy and enjoy being a mother. This is a new and wonderful experience. Even though she isn't here to watch you through this new adventure she is with you. You will start to notice that she is. She would want nothing more than for you to enjoy you're new little blessing. I know that life is hard without her but remember the good things about her, her smile, her laugh, your little inside jokes and smile when you remember those things. She admired your strength and love for life. Continue to be that person for her and your new baby. Hugs and prayers to you.
Jeannette
May 10, 2015