Hi Jill.  I can honestly say, I'm so sorry.  Never knew anything could hurt this bad.  How have you made it to 2015?  I'm struggling to make it through February...through this week.  

I know the feeling.  So many of my mom's friends supported me through the death and funeral, but they're all disappearing now and going back to their lives.   A few of them still email me and ask how I am, but that number is getting fewer and fewer.  And when they ask, I don't even know what to say in response so I usually just say "Im hanging in there."   When really, I am not.  I am so broken and I don't know how to get through the day.   But people can't handle it when you say that.  The "easy" part was the funeral and all the crazy busy planning and attending and stuff.  I didn't have to think and feel, I just had to go through the motions.  Now that there is nothing to do, I feel the loss so much more.  The day after day without her.   The grabbing my phone to call her only to realize I can't.   Ugh.  It's horrible.