Tammy

Female

Staten Island, NY

United States

Profile Information:

About Me:
I am a newly widowed lesbian, who is struggling to deal with the sudden death of my "husband" and the death of my Mother five months later. I am in therapy and have participated in bereavement groups, but I am having a very hard time coping and nights and weekends are the worst. I just want to communicate with people who know how I feel.
About my Loss:
My husband died suddenly one morning in November 2009 while I was getting ready for work. One minute we are doing our morning routine and the next minute My Love was dead. I am still traumatized by his sudden death and I walk around devastated and in such unbearable pain. Unfortunately, my dear Mother died just 5 months (April 2010) later from cancer. While my mother had been battling cancer for some time, her sudden decline in health and her death has compounded my grief. I feel very alone in the world. The two people who loved me best and who I loved best are gone. Life seems meaningless and finding the strength to go on is a daily battle.
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  • Jeannie Porter

    see my profile and respond if you want to become understanding friends
  • Semary Rose

    Tammy, thank you so much for your comment.  I, too, am a vegatarian and hubby was anything but.  It is interesting that you had the same grocery store issues that I do.  I went today for the 2nd "big shopping trip" and spent aobut 80 bucks.  Typically, I spent almost 200.  Yep, life has changed.  Did you find your husband?  Did you call 911?
  • Semary Rose

    I am so sorry for that traumatic morning.  I had a similar experience with finding my husband.  I think about it several times an hour.  I am sorry for your loss and I am here if you ever want to talk or share.