Hi Kelli, I am new to this site also.  I sympathize with your lost feelings, I too feel lost.  I don't really know how to fill my days,  the loneliness is so terrible. I hope somehow to be able to function somewhat.  Right now, I just wake, sit eat something, try to nap, eat something and then bed.  I can't read anything as I cannot concentrate and I stay on one page.  I have lost the love of my life.

Tonight I was shouting at god asking why he look my sweatheart away from me.  I don't even know if I do have any faith but it felt good to scream at someone or something.  My faith is broken and the fact that I will never see him again totally shatters me.  How can that be?  Together for 40 yrs iy's like an amputation  I appreciate you reaching out to me, today was hard and your kind words were welcome.  i hope you begin to feel better soon but the    hole in our hearts will always be there.  Stay well.  Beverly

Thank you Kelli,  This may be a repeat comment but new to site and not sure you received my messages.