Hi Jacy I feel kind of silly talking to someone I do not know about my feelings it is hard for me to even talk to the ones I am close to about my feelings. I read your page and it made me cry  because I lost my dad to pancreatic cancer Nov.18 2011. My dad was living with my husband daughter and I. Its been about four months and it is hard for me to get through a day with out crying or even leaving my house. when does this feeling go away I have never been one to cry, I feel ashamed  when I cry. I feel like an outsider looking in and my family is telling I need to get over it but I can't I miss him so much.