Hi Robin, I too lost my husband of 20 yrs on 1/30/2016.  I am still very lost and heartbroken.

I am so sorry for your loss.

Hello Robin.  I lost my husband of 34 years to cancer 3 weeks ago.  I am already exhausted by the brutality of this grief.  Sometimes my knees buckle from the physical body blows.  My stomach aches and my head hurts and my heart is shattered.  I thank God that at least other people understand.  I realize there are two worlds now.  One inhabited by those who haven't and those inhabited by those who have lost the love of their life.  I keep going because I have to but I pray to go home every single day.  I know that even when this becomes more bearable and eventually it will my best days are behind me.  So it's going through the motions until it's my turn.  I pray for all us daily and send my love to you and others who truly know what suffering is.

So sorry for your loss, my post is on here somewhere, but reading all these sad posts makes me sadder and wonder if I should but we are the only ones who know how it feels