Hi Laura

Hospice has been so helpful. Sara is now on Morphine and is finally in no pain. She is resting comfortabely and able to sleep. It is now just a matter of time as her organs have begun to start going into failure.  The wait is tortuous. I think I have been blocking out the pain and I feel like I might crumble soon.  I want to thank you for your support and comfort.

I don't have my husband as he is my ex and he has a girlfriend of 22 years.  But that's okay because, as you said, I have my son, daughter-in-law, and friends to support me.  Laura, I'm scared.

Sara's dad's girfriend called me and read off a list of songs they want to play during the memorial.  All were good and I added Stairway to Heaven.  I also wanted to make sure that Over the Rainbow by IZ was on there.  I have played it so many times that I know it by heart.  Her dad is doing the eulegy and giving those who want a chance to say something the time to do that.  I want to speak but dont know how I will feel then.  I hurt more than I thought I did.  Thiss is so painful.