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Mark
Male
Pittsburgh, PA
United States
Profile Information:
- About Me:
- I am a 53 year old man.
- About my Loss:
- On March 13, 2015 I lost my wife of 30 years. My wife has had significant health issues for the last 10 but none were life threatening.
My wife big problem was an addiction to prescription pain killers and alcohol.
Four years ago the drugs and alcohol had gotten completely out of hand. We had a fight one night regarding it and the next day she attempted suicide with alcohol and drugs. Fortunately I got home in time was able to get her help soon enough that she lived. And I stipulated for her to come back home after that that she complete an alcohol rehab program.
On 13 march she called me from a bar needing a ride home, she was too drunk to drive. I did not know she was drinking again. I got her home and to bed. Later that night my son checked on her and she was blue and not breathing. She had succeeded in killing herself.
There are many more details, and I will get into them if I stay active on this website. I need an outlet to express myself to others that have had similar losses. - Are You a Service Provider? If Yes, please tell us about your service.
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morgan
I have read your blog over the last couple days and I just wanted to say how sorry I am. Yours is a a very tragic circumstance and you have a very interesting way of expressing your thoughts and emotion surrounding your wife's death. It is very sad that the high of everyday life for some is not enough and they choose to process reality from a very different perch. I used to wonder and now I just admit we each live out our lives according to no known manuals. It's hit and miss or miss.
I have endured the pain of this loss for over two years now and it has taken me a long time to come out of the fog of analyzing myself while examining the raison d etre for living. And all I've come out with is a fervent hope that my own life is short. I spent 35 years loving the man of my dreams and at 63 I've done and had everything I wanted. But that is just me.
My hope is that others never have to suffer the feelings and think the thoughts that have been my constant companion since Jan. 21, 2013 but I know that is false hope. It's been a rugged, brutal, trip through my mind and I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy. It's why I come here, read and then write how I am. Death a hard place to visit much less have to stay…. if only the silence was not so deafening.
Take care……
Apr 16, 2015
Naomi
Apr 29, 2015
dream moon JO B
iv bean sayin in chat 2 sinse i joind i can hav a grt rant in chat wear no 1 givs me grief coz of loss
sorry for yore loss if i did not say in chat
May 14, 2015