I know what you mean I had to have minor surgrey 2 weeks ago and it was so hard to do all the things that he would have been there for but I had to do it all by myself.I have been taken anxiety meds since my husband came home from the hospital with hospice in Jan and I can not imange what this would be like without them.Everyone keeps telling me that this gets better but I do not think I beleive them anymore it hurts as bad or worse now than it did 7 months ago.I know for the first month I was in shock but I did not think it would really get worse but it has for me lately.Maybe it is the fall weather here or the impending holidays haing my grandkids close helps but not all the time.I guess we just get through one day at a time.

Whrn Marvin died it was just the beginning of spring here and then summer came and now fall but it all feels the same to me,I feel not much at all I am just going through the motions of what used to be a normal life.I get up,go to work come home read or watch tv then go to bed early only I do not sleep over 4 or 5 hours a night.People always ask how I am sometimes I want to scream my best friend,the love of my life is gone forever !!!! hiw do you think I am.But of course I dont because they are all trying to help.I will also say a extra prayer for you tonight as well Sheila

Hello,
My wife of 33 years and truly my love, died on a Wednesday. She felt a little sick on Monday, by Tuesday we made an appointment to see the doctor on Wednesday. That morning i took her into the emergency room. She walked in and registered on her own. by 6 PM she died. she died of ARDS, pneumonia with a full body infection. i still can't believe it. She died on August 18th. I keep saying out loud "where are you". i finally stopped crying on a daily basis but the hurt is still there and I don't think it will ever get easier, maybe just use to it but not eisier.
We were just at the point in our lives ready to retire, our daughter was 8 months pregnant and we inherited a lot of money and were making wonderful plans.