Keturah Turner a.k.a Kat

Female

United States

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About Me:: I am a 38 year old mother of 3, ages 6 up to 13. I am a stay at home mom....so that is my full time job.
About my Loss:: In September of 2014 we lost my only baby brother to dusting:( he was 29 a father of 2 sweet girls ages 6 and 4. He hid it so well none of the family knew about it until 1 week before he passed. We tried to get him help but on the night of his first apt. He never made it, because he dissapeared. We hunted and searched days for him and finally after being missing for 3 days they found him in his van with 25-30 cans of dust off empty and he had suffered a massive heart attack:( I thought after the funeral I would have some closure, but no. It's all still so surreal and he's been gone for 5 months now. We don't have all the answers and I'm so sad! It's affecting my marriage, my husband doesn't understand how I feel. This is so tough and I just am curious how does one cope with this? I will never accept it. I feel stupid too cause I didn't even know dust off was a drug:(