Hi,I'm know what it's like to need to have someone to talk to who gets it. I'm struggling with the loss of my son and grandson 6 weeks apart. 

I'm sorry for your loss. It was suggested that I read a book called Good Grief which I am ordering from Amazon. Maybe you could look for it too. I recently signed up for program called Grief Share which will start in June.

The other thing I do to try to help myself is to journal what I'm going through a couple times a week. It seems to help to write things down to get them out although it's not the same as talking with another person.

I'm glad you found this group and hope that you get the support you need. There is light at the end of the tunnel. May God bless you in  you're grieving process.

Both my son and grandson were battling addictions for quite a while. I was not aware of the fact that my son was using heroin till after he died. I found him dead on my bathroom floor. I can't begin to describe what that was like.   6 weeks later my grandson who was sticking close by my side after my son died was found dead in the bathroom where he worked. Both where heroin overdoses. Possibly the heroin laced with something deadly but the tox report is not back yet. We just know it was heroin. The shock is just starting to wear off. My son lived at home with me and I am lost without him. He was not my life in some sick way but a very large part of my life and we were very close. Same with my grandson.