Bonnie Cassell

Female

Salem, OR

United States

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About my Loss:
My son strangle himself this month playing one of those games and he could not get free. His anniversary, his first one on the 26th

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  • Ann Edmondson

    Across the miles or across the sea
    E-hugs are sent to thee.
    The pain is real I know
    My offer of help is not just for show.

    May 25, 2011

  • Ann Edmondson

    Bonnie ~ I truly understand the pain you are going through. Loosing a child is the hardest thing any parent can suffer. Don't think for a minute that just because "it's been a year" that you are supposed to magically transform and forget the pain. My son died four and a half years ago. There are still times when I cry myself to sleep. There are times when I dream that he is home -- then I wake up and suffer the anguish all over again. We are here to help you any way we can on Online Grief Support. While we may be separated by miles, we are all as close as the internet allows. You can say anything on these pages and no one will judge you! We all help each other in our grief. You mentioned that you have Agoraphobia (please forgive me if I misspelled it.). Is this the physical challenge of fear to be in crowds. If not, could you explain it to me. I am not very familiar with this phobia. Personally I am claustrophobic (fear of being in tight places). I am willing to chat with you via Facebook or directly with my Email also. My Email is ann.edmondson@yahoo.com. Please let me know if there is anything I can do to help. I always have a listening heart and am here for you. ~Ann

    Aug 7, 2011

  • Lorraine

    Bonnie, I lost my 29 year old son Silas River on May 27th, 2008.  Our circumstances are different, but the pain is not.  Silas was diagnosed with stage IV cancer just 8 months before he passed on.  He was a risk taker and lived life on his own terms.  He told a friend after his diagnosis, "I knew that I would die young, however I thought it would be my big mouth getting me shot!"  He was very funny too.  I notice that your son passed on in May as well, one day before the anniversary of Sy's death.  I am so sorry for your loss.  I also understand your dark thoughts, as it is close to impossible not to have them.  I hope that you find a bit of peace here, knowing that you can share with others without judgement.  We are all parents who feel the pain of not having our children here with us, and it doesn't matter one little bit how they died...  they are loved forever.  sending love your way

    Dec 29, 2011