Hi Desiree,  I am so sorry about the lost of your husband.  I can relate to your statement of... People say it is normal how we are feeling.  Your right life without our partner/husband will never be normal.  It is so hard to do anything.  My fiance died on April 27th 2012..  I thought I was managing my days a little better but this past week has been awful. When i go out of the house I get anxiety attacks. So I stay in as much as possible.  I do have to go out for certain things but I rather stay at home in case an attack comes on.  I have been crying like crazy..   I understand how you feel about the 4th of July

being hard.  My sweet Christian was the grilling man as well.  Holidays will never feel the same.  I pray that you have strength to get through each day.  Know that you are not alone.  This website has been a saving grace for me. Hope it can be one for you too. 

Take care :)

hi Desiree, been thinking about you, how are ya doing?  We had our one month anniv.  Was a tough day for me.

Dear Desiree,

I feel so sad that you have had this happen in your life time. You are so blessed to have a man that you love dearly and who loves you. Note I do not mention past tense. He is still your husband and always will be. He is just in another place. You will join him one day. I know no words can take the pain and feeling of helplessness away from you. You will learn to live without him in the physical sense because you have to. Keep him close at all times. Look at your children in awe because you created them together with your love. I married to wrong man and wasted 20 years being abused by him verbally. He finally left me. I am 56 years old and completely alone since my mother passed from cancer June 26, 2011. Your world is forever changed. Please accept my friendship and support. Sue