I'm a former reporter for both the Chicago Sun Times and Arizona Daily Star and current Huffington Post blogger. I'm also completing my first novel, which is nearing completion and being serialized on Wattpad.
About my Loss:
My story is rather unusual. I found out about the death of a VERY significant other from my past only a couple of years ago, and it knocked the wind out of me. He was, I always admit, the love of my life. And I had always imagined we'd meet again and find a way to be friends at least, as I've done with other loves. Finding out that that could never, ever happen was extremely painful. I felt it almost as deeply as I would have if I'd been there when he died. I felt helpless and that it was incredibly unfair.
Worse, only a few months ago, I discovered that the "official" version of his death--he was an actor whose biographies are online--was a smoke screen invented by his family. He actually killed himself, and a woman who worked for his manager contacted me on Facebook when she read an article I wrote about us. I found myself going right back through the whole grief process, which totally amazes me. It has been many years, and yet, just being pulled back into that world has been devastating. I slip in and out of a profound grief repeatedly when he pops up on TV or online. The last time, I had a "visitation" dream about him--a series of dreams--that deepened the pain. So I came here, hoping to find others who might understand this better than my friends, who cannot believe I'm still that "raw" after all these years.
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Cynthia Dagnal-Myron
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Tucson, AZ
United States
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Worse, only a few months ago, I discovered that the "official" version of his death--he was an actor whose biographies are online--was a smoke screen invented by his family. He actually killed himself, and a woman who worked for his manager contacted me on Facebook when she read an article I wrote about us. I found myself going right back through the whole grief process, which totally amazes me. It has been many years, and yet, just being pulled back into that world has been devastating. I slip in and out of a profound grief repeatedly when he pops up on TV or online. The last time, I had a "visitation" dream about him--a series of dreams--that deepened the pain. So I came here, hoping to find others who might understand this better than my friends, who cannot believe I'm still that "raw" after all these years.
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