Hi Janet I know I have not been on here I been trying to work and wow my mom 4 Thursday's ago I didn't realize I had forgotten to pay a couple of bills now wow I have to catch up some utilities don't seem to care who dies I was doing ok then I am having one of my crappy feelings to no I do miss my mom terribly , what's hard on me is I will see an elderly person and just start to cry cause my mom was 87 I see her not that person I am somewhat afraid to talk to any cause Iknow they will perish soon . Nasty eh I love you it will be ok what a roller coaster ride this is plus menopause plus my daughter wow I need mom so much

Hello Janet,

Thank you for your response.   It is so nice to have found a group of people who can relate to what it means to loose your mom.   It sounds like you have the same questions as I do-  "did I do enough for Mom?",  "did she know how much I loved her", etc.   I wish there were easy answers to our questions.  Sometimes I wish there was a big eraser too, where I could go back and erase the things I got wrong with Mom and fix them.  Well, anyhow, hang in there- I hope tomorrow will bring a little sunshine your way.