Sammie

Female

Philadelphia, PA

United States

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About Me:
I am a mother, a wife, I am currently in school pursuing my second Master program. I keep very busy since I have 4 children ranging from 7 years old to a newborn.
About my Loss:
My mom has been very sick for many years, along with her sickness has brought her a lot of pain throughout the years. I am an only child and my mom was my best friend. She passed away suddenly when I was about 6 months pregnant. Loosing a loved one is hard however, this compounded my loss. In addition I almost lost my life as well as my daughter (she is our newborn) approx. 2 months after my mom's passing. We both went through a unexpalinable experience. My husband was wonderful, more than I could describe. On the other hand, I needed my mom. It has almost been one year, honestly I am experiencing more & more anxiety as the day approaches I am at a loss for words. Shall I keep to myself, stay strong for my children? Or let myself feel my loss?

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  • Diana, Grief Recovery Coach

    Oh yes, I think they want us to know they are still here. That they haven't gone anywhere and they care about us.

    Sep 25, 2010

  • Jalysa Reyes

    Good Afternoon Sammie,

    I have been sleeping all day YUCK, since its Saturday. I do have to go to work. I think you being busy can be a good and or bad thing. It is good because your mind is staying active and away from the worry of the loss of your mother, but it is bad because you could be doing other things like family picnics, walks, movies ect but maybe you have that set aside already. I would give anything to have a family. My grandmother and aunt love me, yes, but it is just different when you have your own family.
    Of course I need to build my foundation first, that is why I'm going to school for Sociology. I want to work with children that do not have parents, so far getting the experience for that hasn't been going that well. I want to go to grad school to get my masters in soc. then pick up another bs in education, grapic design or journalism. Don't work too hard. Make sure you have some YOU time.

    Have a great day!

    Sep 25, 2010

  • Jalysa Reyes

    Hello Sammie, thank you for thinking of me. I have not had a chance to get on here that much myself. I am still trying to get my life in order. I am glad to hear that you are doing well. Positive energy is the best medicine for getting through life, so far that is what I have found. I'm still waiting for the graduate school opportunity because I missed the deadline, but in the mean time I want to sign up for classes just to keep my brains from drying out, I guess. I have to say that things are a bit more difficult without parents to help guide me along, but I never make that an excuse for not doing what I need to do...anymore. Anyway, you sound in good spirits. Keep me updated on everything. 

    *Always love*

    Apr 8, 2012