Carrie,
Thank you so much. I am ok for the most part now, but the rollercoaster is soooo hard. I just can not believe that he is gone, and I guess that, that is part of the grieving process. I lost a son when he was 2 weeks old, and my son that just past away always said that he wouldn't live past 30, and next month will be 30 years ago that I buried my first son. Bobby that just past away I think that he must have known for a long time that he would not be here long he was just 31 on June the 8th.
Thank you again for your kind words, and I wish I was able to make your pain go away. Take good care.

Thank you Carrie for your words. Some days it is unbearable and most days it is ok and you go about life and a very few days there is normal carefree life. Kate (my wife, Britt's step-mom) and I have given up trying to predict how or when we may have some sense of normalcy back. As each day goes by it seems worse, if that's even possible. Some days I just don't care whether I live or die or w/e, I just want to be with my Britt.

Carrie,
I just moved back to IL in May to help my son. We got an apartment in June the 18th we moved in, and I lost him July 30. I hated that building from the moment we walked in it, and did not like the apartment it just such an ominish feel about it, and now I know why
Thank you so much for writting back. I will be off line for a little while as I am moving to Rockford IL to be closer to my younger son, and I am taking my adult daughters with me, so I will at least have three of them close. Take good care. Feel free to caal if you need to talk 740-961-7534