valerie cox

Female

Concord, CA

United States

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About my Loss:: I just lost my mom to lung cancer october 10th. We didnt find out til july that she had it. I lived with my mom most of my life, we both had post traumatic stress disorder from earlier experiences in life and we both just wanted to live in peace. We love each other so much i say love not loved i know she is still with me. The sadness i feel is overwhelming, trying to live alone is lonely without her we talked all day long when she was here. We took good care of each other, and i love her more than anyone or anything. We always told each other how greatful and lucky we were to have each other. I dont feel like talking much to people i know, i dont think they get it, how my life has been turned upside down. I pray for my mom, i dont want her to worry from where she is at now, but this feels like a nightmare i cant wake up from. I decided to join this online support group, in hopes of seeing i am not alone in this. I am sorry for everyones loss. The holidays are almost here and i have never spent a christmas without my mom. Thanks for letting me join