I lost my Dad to cancer August 31st. Some days it seems unbearable that he is gone. There is a hole in my life, he was my rock. The solid one in the family throughout my life. The pain is so much more than I imagined, the longing is huge. I took care of him and spent as much time with him as he would allow in the past year. Watching him go through this was horrific and horribly painful at times. I have never shed so many tears. All I could do in the end was be there, hold his hand, tell him how much he was loved and give him comfort. We were close, I miss and love him so dearly. I am seeing now somehow this pain won't ever end. It may get less as time passes but the hole in my life is profound. The flood of memories are wonderful, the way he loved me, the memories of being a little girl and feeling so safe and loved with my Dad always. He was a gentle soul, I guess I was Daddies little girl and I feel blessed that he was my father.
Colleen
Female
Canada
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