Felicia Azut

Female

Israel

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About Me:
I am a 44 year old woman married with two kids a 15 year old daughter and a 11 year old son. I work in high tech and have been married for almost 20 years.
About my Loss:
I lost my sister less than 30 days ago. So many people do not understand what it is like to lose a sibling. She always said she would never live to see 50 and she died on August 17, 2011 a month before her 50th birthday. To make it even worse I am Jewish and this Saturday ends the first month of mourning which is a big thing. My sister's name was Sharon and I was the baby sister but always took care of her. Even though I live in Israel and she was in the US for the last 9 years our bond was so strong. So many times she was supposed to move in with me. She developed ARDS in 2009 note she was an extremely bad asthmatic and it was amazing she survived the ARDS. (Acute Respiratory Distress Syndrome.) The last 8 months she suffered on and off ventilation never home. She was divorced no children. She said to me on the Saturday before she died "Why did you fly in" I told her that she was my sister and I would always be there for her. She then said you know "I may not die but if do dont stop it. She just gave up she could not fight it anymore. I wear something of her everyday a piece of jewelry use her eye glass case. My sister loved to collect pigs cookie jars ceramic whatever I now have pigs all over my house. I miss her so much. She is never going to be around to see my kids grow up or be old with me. I feel like a piece of my hear died.

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