Marjorie, I'm so sorry you have had to join us on this because it means you've lost your other half! I"m 3 years into this "new normal".  I don't have the numbness I had in the first year. I'm able to "function" in everyday life but...not a day goes by where I don't wish for my old life back. I want my husband and the life we had together...I retired months after losing Bill because I was sucked dry. I am a nurse and just didn't want to be responsible for anyone else's life. My 2 adult children live with me but I'm afraid of smothering them because they are all I have...all I care about. Let yourself grieve. There is no time limit on grief and only those of us who have experienced losing our other half understand that. How long were you together? And how much do your friends and family support you? Please know that this is the perfect place to voice how you feel and noone will judge you....

Please don't measure your grief against anyone else's. Each of us grieves differently. I'm sorry your grief overwhelmed you to the point of having a breakdown. Sometimes I think I may have one, too. Things that happen in everyday life I now find difficult to handle. I  agonize over making decisions. I worry about everything. Thank God for a couple of good friends who are always willing to listen. Just be kind to yourself!

I will be 64 in March and I feel the same way. Right now I am near panic because weather tomorrow(I live in the States) forecasts a rather major snowstorm. My son faces a 1 hour commute and was already in an accident last week and now needs to drive MY car. For some reason God is really testing me and mine. I used to be a more positive/upbeat person. Now I just worry. Having that other person really did bring balance to our lives and made challenges easier...

Marjorie,

Yes, I have had complicated grief for five years, it gets a little better every year, I see a Psychotherapist and a Psychiatrist for meds. I am told by them that is does not last forever, I hope so.

Marjorie,

The first year my Husband died I saw a grief counselor given by Hospice, I was still not doing good after a year so my grief counselor suggested a therapist and gave me her name. You can ask your doctor to give you some names and just make an appointment to see one.

Marjorie,

I made that statement to Maxey because despite seeing the therapist. I was so close to my Husband, he was my soulmate and the love of my life. I just feel it will last until I die. I go on with life, but am just existing.

Marjorie,

The only reason I see my therapist is to kept me sane and I can talk with her about my feelings, my family and friends just do not understand why I am still grieving. Thank God for her or I don't know how I would be able to go on without my Julian. I do have a dog Babie J would gives me a lot of comfort.