Rachel Lynn Schuler

Female

Hanover, PA

United States

Profile Information:

About Me:: I am a 41 year old female....love to watch tv, play games on the computer, sing, just so many different things...I am very kind and outgoing, sweet person
About my Loss:: My mother Nancy, god rest her soul, passed on December 8 of 2010 from cancer....I am having a more than difficult time dealing with her death, and its very unreal to me....the hardest thing I have ever had to deal with....I miss her so, my heart is breaking

Comment Wall:

James Larsen

Hi Rachel. Thank you so much for your inspiration. Especially today! Let's chat soon. I find it helps a lot to talk about it.

Jan 13, 2011
Marie Carr

I know i cant keep feeling angry at my dad and also at myself, but the things he said before she even got ill, like jokes about my mums funeral and a few weeks before she got really ill seemed like, all of a sudden, as she seemed fine a few weeks before. My mum and i were chatting on her sofa, and he walked past, smiled and said, hmm Im making your mums last days as comfortable as possible. Why would he say that, then a few weeks later she can hardly walk, couldnt talk i couldnt believe the difference in such a short time. He was doing her home dialysis. She had a stroke, why didnt he rush her to hospital. Can you see why i keep thinking he was partly or even completely to blame. Although i am confused cos he has cried buckets and has said he has felt he wished he had gone with her. i dont understand. But i do know my mum loved him so much and made excuses for his putn her down, although he was alot nicer to her than years before when we were kids.

Feb 3, 2011
Marie Carr

You said you cuddle her teddy, this is really similar to wt i do. except i hold on to a gift she gave to me not long before she fell ill. I no it sounds silly but i hold on to a swimming costume which she bought me and feel so close to her and so special as she chose that for me. She gave me her necklace, she took it off and put it on me. It has an angel on it. it is silver. I had complimented her and said it looked lovely then she said you can have it I want you to have it. Abit like a plastic table cloth i said i liked on her table. She straight away said i could have it. It is now on my table. These things really help cos they were from just her to me.

Feb 3, 2011
Joan M Vincent-Hanlon

Hi Rachel

Just read your email. I'm 55 and lost my mom 3 years ago to he final insult, Alzheimer's. I lost my purpose and meaning in life that day and it has not returned. I miss her so much that it is literally unbearable. I struggle to put one foot in front of the other each day. I have no children so really feel along in the world.

So, so sad ....

Joan

Feb 22, 2011
chrissy m

thanks Rachel for adding me as a friend =)

Jun 15, 2011
mercy

Hi Rachel. Thank you so much for your gift. I am so honored that such a wonderful person is thinking of me. I'm so alone out here and its good to know you care so much.

Jun 16, 2011
mercy

Rachel, I really appreciate your friendship; its priceless to me. Mercy.

Jun 16, 2011
mercy

Hi Rachel; thanks for your message. Weekends are a little crazy for me cuz I'm busy running around and not much time on the computer. You can add me to your yahoo messenger; it kanyoni16@yahoo.com. I look foward to chatting with you. You are a great inspiration to me, I feel like I've known you a long time. Be Blessed dear.

Jun 18, 2011
mercy

Hi Rachel. How long since your mom died did you start to feel any sense of well being? I just feel like my heart is in a million little pieces and my life is so empty. Its just an overwhelming feeling of loss and sadness. I don't know when the sun will ever shine in my soul. Its just so hard. Take care

Jun 19, 2011
Sue Waxman

Hi Rachel,

My mothers name was Nancy. Like you and your mom she and i were the best of friends. Shopping buddies, dinners together, movies, hanging out all of the time. My sisters are not talking to me - lots of drama. I feel completely alone. My dad left us when we were kids. Mom raised us alone. I am so glad to find this site. Sue

Jul 3, 2011
Sue Waxman

Thank you for embracing me into this community of such loving and caring human beings. I am so greatful to have found this website. That cancer...that damn cancer. I told God the other night that if he needed a soul to take..mine was his. If a mother is sick and her children need her..take me instead. If a father is sick and his children and wife need him..take me. I know this sounds like drama, but I really would give up my life in order to spare someone else of the pain of loss. I have no children and really no close family. I am completely alone. With the exception of my wonderful Golden Retriever Rudy and my 3 kitties Gerda, Will and Petrone. They cover my body at night like a blanket. They feel my pain. Make it through today...she what tomorrow brings.

Jul 3, 2011
mercy

Rachel; I've not seen you here for a while and I'm starting to worry about you. Please post something so we may know you are ok. I've had a very tough time the last two weeks; my grief is so deep sometimes that I long for death but I know my time is not now and I'll try my best to hold on for now. Please my friend, let me know how you are.

Aug 12, 2011
Susan Miller

Thanks for your response Rachel, it was kind of you to take the time to reach out. So nice to hear from someone who understands that one's Mom's clothes aren't "just clothes". When I told my husband that I had given away most of Mom's clothes, he said "oh, that's good." I think he was happy to have one less thing cluttering up the closet!

Aug 14, 2011
mercy

Hi Rachel; I'm so glad to see you posting again. I understand how hard it can be at times since I too get depressed reading other peoples experience with grief. I was just very concerned about you cause of your previous hosptilizations. Its good to know that you've been able to visit your moms grave lately. I've not been able to do that. I just want to believe that mom isn't there. So many times I wish she was cremated, its so hard to know her remains are in the ground, it just doesn't feel right. Maybe one day I'll have the courage to visit her grave. My yahoo id is kanyoni16; hopefully we can chat sometime.

Aug 15, 2011
mercy

Hi Rachel; these are the times I wish I had your number. Is there any way we can talk? I'm so worried about you. I've had some rough days and been sickly but with my little one, I push myself. I'm now out oftown visiting a friend and trying to take it easy.

Please let me know if we can talk?

Aug 26, 2011
mercy

Hey Rachel, I hope things are still working out well for you with the new guy. Life has its own way of going on no matter how hard our situations are. I know you are so happy and that in itself makes me happy and hopeful that one day, I'll be able to smile with abandon and look foward to the little things life has to offer. God Bless.

Oct 24, 2011
Brenda Ann

Rachel,
Please don,t break... There is help and comfort... There are people that care like all of us. The greatest help though is from God. Throw your burden on him, he promises to help. Isaiah 41:10 & 13.

I care too! If you email me at mawmaw1591@gmail.com I will give you my phone number. I will keep you in my prayers.

Brenda

Mar 23, 2012