Joseph Im sorry noone has been able to welcome you.  Im going through a rough patch and just dont have anything to give at the moment.  Im very sorry for your loss.  Im sure others will be able of offer you support as well.  We are all hurting.  Sorry you need to be part of such a horrible group as this one as the only way in is to have lost a great love. 

mum did the same for my grand mother kate she looket after her grand mother kate livid till 89 drank all sorts and s smoket all sorts and livid till 89 now my mum has depresening and bad with her nervs worying abot evry 1 and evry thnk sinse my dad died she started bean bad with her nervs worying abot me geting c o p d keep on trying to tell her not to wory

Michael was gone literally in a matter of hours. We said goodnight at 11:30pm, and I was calling 911 at 2:30, but he had been dead for a while, maybe a couple of hours at the point I found him. The suddenness is what kept me reeling for so long. The finality of it has me in a tailspin right now as I approach the 1 year mark of November 22nd. Being the gut-level reactionary I can be at times, the first thing I did was cuss him out for leaving me, and the second thing I did was forget how my iPhone worked. I miss him every day.

Thank You Joseph for reading my poems.  Let me first say I am sorry for your sudden loss of your dear wife.  It is such a lonely place to be but know that you are not alone.  I believe that everything  happens for a reason and I am sure she guided you to my page :)  I feel Christian guides me as well. 

writing poems does help me release my sadness and I am also glad it can touch others. 

Take Care and know that you are not alone and that this site is available 24/7

I see the love you had for each other. I never thought I would be a widow at 48 but it happened, and I get really angry about it sometimes. She is a beautiful woman, and I wish I could say it'll be better soon but that's not particularly true, is it? I am thinking about you, hoping you will find a measure of peace and a comfort each day.

Brenda Doughty

Joseph, I saw you message on the chat last nite and I am sorry that noone is on chat when you go on there or that when you do go on that noone answers.  I am sorry for your loss and that you are struggling with the Holidays.  I will tell you that I have found that there are more people on the chat between the hours of 7PM EST and 10PM EST then any other time and I too have found that it appears folks are logged into chat but don't answer-I think it is because they have come to the page and just not logged out, but left so it shows them as still being on.  I know what it is like to want someone to be there to talk with and noone is on there, very frustrating. 

No apology necessary.  Isn't there some saying about the squeaky wheel? 

Squeaky wheel-you said something about having to complain or gripe  on here to get anyone to listen, was just saying it worked, you got someone to respond :)  Hope you have a decent week-end.  The holidays are sneaking up and I am definitely not looking forward to them.  My mom was always the one who was the leader in our holiday celebrations and without her I just don't don't what I will do.

Hi Joseph.

You wonder when people are online.  I am in the PST time zone and I usually pop in around 7:30am before work, 1pm while the kidlets are napping, and 8 or 9pm when I actually have time for chatting.  If you can figure out how your time zone relates to mine you will know when I'm likely to be here.  Maybe some others will let you know their schedules as well. 

Being alone STINKS~! so if I'm here I will chat with you.

we all live in difrnent tim zonez if the hole world livid in the same time zone i no it wud be a lot easer for evry 1 i no in the uk its 1025pm now and in other parts of the world its the nxt day its so cofusing i no