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IM SORRY FOR YOUR LOSS I TO FEEL THE SAME WAY EXCEPT IT WAS MY SOLE MATE OF 26 YRS 14 OF THEM MARRIED SHE DIED FROM H.C.M. ''HYPERTPORPHIC  ''SUDDEN DEATH''  I MIN HEAR NEXT MIN GONE SEPT 16 ON HER MOTHERS BIRTHDAY TO MAKE THINGS JUST PERFECT  SHE BEHIND FIVE CHILDREN FOR ME TO WATCH OVER AS WELL AS FINISH BRINGING UP ALONE AS WITH ALL LOVED ONES THAT BOND THAT WE MAKE WITH THEM NEVER STOPS AND NEVER GOES AWAY  SO IM NOT HERE TO TELL YOU THAT YOU'LL GET BY/OVER/THROUGH THIS/ BUT THERE IS  THE FAITH / HOPE THAT YOU FIND THE LIGHT   AND FIND THE REST OF YOUR WAY THROUGH ALL THIS IM HERE FOR YOU ENY TIME

yes i no whot u mean abot frydays fryday  woz the day my dad got admited to hospitlle i thort i woz doing the right thng dialling 999 it woz abot 3 or 4 am in the morning mum went with him in the ambulanse idmited to this horbel ward with lazy rasest nurses i feal guilt that i left him ther at 330pm on visting hours  he died at 220am on a sataday 3rd of march me and mum got thr 2 late  it woz a weak after the funrall that hit us hard now mums got depresen and bad with nervs woried abot all sorts yore mum sonded like a nise lady she did i woz made to go and sea the gp today she told me if i get no beter by the weakend cal a ambulanse i finaly admited im scared of hospitsles and she woz brilint abot it im sory if iv bean to mush