I'm so sorry Jean that you are still feeling your loss so much, but I understand it.  I don't think I will ever get over the loss of my son.  He is the first thing I think of when I wake and all through out the day.  I have just passed one year, but I know I will take this ache with me for the rest of my life.   It is now a permanent part of who I am.  Blessings to you.

Just wanted to say, "hi" and let you know I'm thinking of you.  Hope you are doing okay.  Hugs, Ann

Hi Jean, thanks for the gift.  That was very sweet of you.  Wish we had one on one contact, but would have to catch you while on here and be in chat.  Would like to know how you're doing when I'm asking and not have to wait.  Just in case you're in a place where you need to be expressing yourself.  I know some days I need to do that right then and there.  Hope I'm making some sense.  I know I'm a little off today.  Had one of my worst nights last night.  Didn't expect anything that bad to be happening again.  I have felt it coming for a few days, but still didn't expect how I was.  Oh, this journey is just so filled with surprises, and not the ones we want.  Had a long conversation with my granddaughter's mom this morning and I think that helped because I'm not feeling as bad as I was.  They weren't married, but they have a little girl that's 2, and it has been so hard for her too.  I thought she was so young that she would forget him quickly, but she hasn't.  Okay, I better move on.  I'm rattling away here.  Sorry.  Hope today is not a bad day for you.  Blessings & hugs, Ann