Emily Elizee

Female

Hatton Garden, Marigot

Dominica

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About Me:
I live in Small Island in the Caribbean, called Dominica. I am an Assistant Manager, for a small resort. I love life, I am positive, and I am a hard worker.
About my Loss:
I feel guilt, because I was there when my boyfriend/best friend was murdered, I was unharmed. I feel hate towards the people who committed the act. I have not been able to sleep without the help of sleeping tabs. I feel empty and do not know the reason why!!! I feel helpless. I do not know what how I am suppose to behave towards my loss, are people expecting me to cry all the time, can i Smile when I remember the jokes Joe and I shared? I have just decided today to move back into the room we shared together, I feel like I am ready, I wonder whether I am really ready or not? And then I wonder what would Joe want me to be doing in this situation!! He was killed on July 31, 2011, I do not feel safe in the night, but I realize it will take a while to get rid of the fear. I just need to know if what I am feeling is ok and that I am not alone.

Comment Wall:

  • Babs

    Hi Emily, am so so sorry to hear of the loss of your boyfriend in such horrible circumstances, Please know there are people on here you can chat with, just to be there. No one can take away the pain or tell you how you should grieve but we can stand with you. Allow yourself to grieve in a way that you want, there is no wrong or right, its your grief. If you would like to chat am online for a bit. My thoughts are with you. Babs

    Aug 9, 2011

  • Marcia Henne

    I am so sorry about your loss and the horrific situation in which it happened. You are in my thoughts. You may want to seek out therapy for post traumatic stress. In such a situation this condition is common. Hugs to you.

    Aug 10, 2011

  • Amanda Ab

    Hello, Emily. I am sorry for your loss. And somehow, I can relate to you. My husband was murdered too on April 28, 2011. There is so many mixed emotions I also feel so much hate and frustration towards the people who did this, who are the cause of our pain. I sometimes find myself, that I now dont know how to be or how to behave, with this new me. And have so much trouble adapting to this new life. I hope to hear back from you and look forward to sharing our toughts.

    Aug 10, 2011

  • Sally

    So sorry for your lost. He seemed like a very nice man, and who knows why good men have to leave us so early in life, when the bad ones are all around.

    Just know he is watching over you and I can also relate with the in-laws. My husbands side doesn't try to communicate but that's ok. People seem to distance themselves from the girlfriends or wives when there partners die. It just some people's nature.

    If you want something to read try looking for The Garden Of Souls. It explains how they are closer to us now then they were here on earth. I carry the book around with me and it's given me great pleasure, I hope you read it and let me know what you think. "Walking In The Garden of Souls" sorry. 

    Aug 25, 2011

  • Sally

    That's funny. Not like haha, but I've been doing the same thing. Everytime I hear a noise I tell him to keep it quite, I got to get some sleep and I thank him for being there for me and that I love him too.  They are not there to scare us, but just to understand that they are still with us and that shows us how much they still love. Keep paying attention to his signs, they are sometimes not so obvious.

    The author is George Anderson(medium) and Andrew Barone. You can also go to George Anderson's facebook page to check out what people say about him. Don't just take my word for it.

    Aug 25, 2011