I am so glad you asked to be my friend that is why I am here to find people that are going through the same process that I am.My family tries to understand and one of my daughters lost her husband 5 years ago but I can not seem to talk to them about their Dad.I just want to try to make some sense out of this and do not know how,maybe we can help each other I sure hope so for both of us

I know exactly what you mean about the holidays,I do not want to cook for Thansgiving or Christmas.We have always has big dinner with a lot of family around but I am just not up to it this year.I will still cook but not for the big group we usually have over,just my 2 daughters that live here and 2 of my grandsons.It is irionic that you mention Wichita because that is where my husband is from and where my stechildren still live,it is also where I took him to be buried.I live 1000 miles away and that is really hard because I have only been able to go visit his grave 3 times since he passed away.My husband and I are both Christans and my faith helps a lot as does talking about this with someone who is going through it too.